Thought complexities of life

I am 25 years old. I am almost about to complete my graduation from a top university in my country. In the case of my academic life, I can see a bright and shining future and I was always confident about my academic career. I hope after graduation I will get a good job or do some kind of business based on the situation.

Let's talk about my behavior. Everyone knows me as a polite person who behaves well all the time. People used to show others especially juniors to be like me in both cases means in case of behavior and education. Seniors used to praise me because of my maturity and I know all of them were saying real and I know myself better.

Let me share the concept of my life. In the case of life, I feel it's just a straight line which is very simple. In any kind of situation, I can remain calm and maybe I get that genetic trait from my father. I believe that it's a very good quality and helps me to make better decisions. Ups and downs are part of life but it seems most of the situations appearing in front of me based on my calculation and my prediction in my case was right all the time.

Some people take me as an idol and it's quite surprising for me and it's a thing which forces me to think do I actually deserve to be in that place they are giving me? Why there's a positive about me? What have I actually achieved? And who am I actually? Do I actually want others to be like me? A lot of questions come to my mind easily.

Sometimes I feel like living the life of a robot. Most of the things happen based on my calculation or prediction. Is it a good thing? Maybe it's good and again it's not good also at the same time because predicting most of things reduces the chances of uncertainty and uncertainty is the beauty of life from a different perspective. Sometimes I feel proud because my prediction comes true and again I feel I am missing the beauty of my life.

Let's keep aside the academic cases from my life. I think I have very little traveling experience as my achievement and that's it. I feel in my life there are not so significant incidents to remember. So I consider my achievements in life to be almost nothing.

My emotions are also highly controlled by me. In fact, my emotions are getting dominated by my own set rules and principles. Only in one place, my emotions act naturally and it's my home.
Sometimes I think why I am still alive? What is the purpose of my life? Maybe to provide finance to my family.

What about you have read till now was my opinion about life 1.5-2 years ago means how I used to think in that time about life. But thoughts of humans change with time and in my case it's also not different. So I am going to share about life from my current thoughts.

Starting with the achievements. I know I didn't achieve too much in life but I made some real friends, I have earned the trust of others, and I earned the respect and love of others. All of those things are achievements and to achieve those things people struggle all over their life and I have gotten it from an earlier age obviously my achievement is huge compared to others.

In the case of life concept, I am indeed lucky because I can think about our life so simply which is very helpful to give me satisfaction and happiness. In case of uncertainty, it always exists and I can't be 100% sure in any case. If my prediction comes true it's a matter of enjoyment because it's a success and most of the time my predictions are accurate means I am special.

Emotions can be controlled by me is a very good thing because it's my strength. Most of the people make a wrong decision or wrong steps in life because of emotion. Obviously, I am lucky because I have good controlling power over it.

Why I am still alive is not possible to answer but now I think about it from a border perspective. I feel am still alive which means I have to do something big in the future and I need to meet with my destiny.