“There is no getting on top of the list.” I have to remind myself almost once a day. Not sure anymore where I have read that sentence, but ever since it sticked. I am glad. Shows up to remind me, that I can’t shoot the expectations towards myself, to the moon.
Sometimes it helps to talk to other people and I can remind myself of how much constructive progress I can see in my life lately. Six months made me move further, faster, than any time in my life before. There are moments where I am almost in tears, because of how grateful I am for it. There are other moments, where I forget and then I feel like I have to reach everything in no time and make up for the lack of achievement of others at the same time.
A crowded mind in a calm place.
And then people see me as on a constant holiday. They have no idea, but they don’t need to have one.
Just for the fun, I would like to create something big. So big, that I would never be questioned about “what I do with my life” ever again. I haven’t figured out yet if it is my ego or just me playing around with life. But somehow I would like to proof or show, that all this really does work.
Proof to who? They are probably not the right public that needs to be impressed.
It is a slow process to find “my people”. First I have to know who I am in order to see what I attract. Some are already there and I am excited to meet the ones to come.
Because when I read all these books of humans following their passion, their path with conviction and determination I feel understood and I see they exist. “See, it’s f**ing hard, but it does work!”
That’s maybe what it all comes down to. Not to get on top of any list, but to attract and keep the right people around. The ones that teach and share their knowledge. Share their passions. Live up to their potential. Reflect, grow and work things through.
Wether they write books, build castles and embark on expeditions or found their place in the world, built their families with affection, do their jobs with love and encounter others without judgements.
A calm mind in a crowded place.
Thank you for passing by, enjoy your week!
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