Endlessly.
Forever.
As long as it takes until you get it.
Not sure if I want to call it Karma. I always had my difficulties, believing someone could get punished that straight forward for their bad actions. Who decides whats good and what bad? Who is there to bring justice to our actions? To me, no one, but yourself. Some people do terrible things and they just get away with it. Sometimes we do terrible things to ourselves and we think we can get away with it.
Do we really?
Even if there is no one there making sure everyone gets what they deserve. We will never be able to escape ourselves. Every action, every thought and lesson along the way will stay with us, forever, until the end.
It is a constant choice between growth or destruction.
Either we learn the lesson, or we’ll carry it with us, for as long as it takes to get it, wether it will be six or forty-four years or anything in between.
You can just accept the lesson when it shows up for the first time in your life, or you can drag it on forever. You can repeat a pattern for the fourth time over decades, and still think this time you’ll get away with it. After years of disappointment you can still stick around, just one more moment, because you’ll think, this time something will change.
And what’s the Karma all about when you see it in the people around you? When you see them laying one stone after the other in their way? When you see them making it harder to move on for themselves, see them sabotaging their own growth? If you keep on dragging these stones out of their way, just for them to throw back some more.
It seems to take up the same time as learning a lesson. Forever and just one more time. The lesson, that one day one of these stones will hit you, and maybe that, finally makes you give up. Give up, trying to clear the way of others for them.
A lot of sadness, not for the one that got hit. But for the ones who keep throwing the stones.
Choosing destruction over growth and comfort over learning and the unknown.
It is everyones choice.
There is something very exciting about it, realizing that you can learn and that you can move on and always further in life at any stage. Even if it can be awfully hard and hurtful to face some realities, it opens endless opportunities for change. Even if it can be difficult to accept you’ll never get your time back, you can always choose how you’ll spend the time you have left. Wether you want to spend it pulled back by your past or driven forward by freedom.
And all it takes is just one moment. One choice. The one to learn and grow.
Maybe that’s what they mean when they call it “Karma”. Nobody escapes themselves, and we can all choose to learn our own lessons.
Isn’t growth always… “Hard at the beginning, messy in the middle and beautiful in the end.” 1 ?
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1 Robin Sharma "The 5am. Club"