Have you also experience loosing passion to what you deeply love doing, thinking that it does not make sense?
Are you afraid on performing it again, just to get discriminated and get turned down from it?
Should we really do what we once love, or just live a peaceful life we must have?
But, would life be really peaceful, if your heart still wants to do it all?
Hi, creative minds with optimistic hearts. I am opening my blog with realizations and reflections about something I deeply love doing. Maybe you have something you love doing too! Might be singing, dancing, sports, music or something else. Whatever it is, let me share this one to you.
Today, I just finished teaching our Department representative for an upcoming competition. She learned quickly and executed what she was being taught correctly. I can see her drive and effort on doing so. I am proud of her progress.
But while being flattered about her, a realization came to mind. I WAS ONCE HER. And people around me before was once me now. How come I lost grip of the thing I truly love doing, when I told myself that this would be a progressive dream? How come I let that passion alone and slowly die, when it was once a burning fire in my heart? Do I really love doing so, when only with few downfalls, I already let it go?
People always tell me, I'm good at it and to just do it again. I am aware of it, but why do I not care? Why does these seemingly flattering words, just passed through my mind like a bird?
But then, I remembered. The situation I have been through that made me lost what I once deeply love doing, made me develop the new found qualities I possess - which before I much deeply doubted. That downfall made me develop the strength and consistency to move forward, independent to what I am familiar of. Maybe it was a lesson not to attach myself on something because I am constantly evolving. Only my will to face my reality, and its ever changing dynamics, remains constant.
Surely, it was something I deeply focused on at some point. It was something that shaped who I am. And honestly, something I wish would remain to describe me. But its not and would not be. I am a frame of various pieces. It was only a part of me, not my whole frame.
It was good to live in it and make it my centerpiece, but only for a moment. I need to give myself a chance to experience different circumstances and just enjoy. Maybe that's the whole point. Live your current to the fullest, because it is your present. And store it as a valuable experience of yours, to keep for a lifetime.
Loosing what was once a treasure in my heart, is a doorway of developing and discovering my core, unique and constant in me.
the present
How about you? What was that love about?