I used to burn in the Terrible Dark Fires of Fear, for most of my life.
From a young age, until Death personally visited my Father,
transforming him first into Death himself, Skeleton King, before killing him.
Watching death do his job in merciless manner, wrecking a sun in my life,
to absolutely nothing, drenched in months upon months of suffering.
I never could forget that sight.
I became obsessed with you Death.
I wished to understand why you steal the Breath.
I wanted to know the truth behind your evil ways.
To know the Truth about the one who Kills and Slays.
Every soul in this world.
Several years ago, you finally came for me,
first you visited me in the psychedelic realms of visionary states.
You came to me, face to face.
I was dying.
I struggled hard against you.
I did not want to Die.
I managed to tango with you in a battle for life after that visit.
You did not leave, you then decided & said
"you think you can avoid me by avoiding to Trip?"
So he begun breaking down my actual mind and body, my heart, lungs and prostate suddenly for no reason failing.
Emergency Room visits, Doctor I am dying, help me what do I do?
The Doctor checks, Heart Damage, Lung Fucked up, I got no clue what is happening to you.
Then one Day after having had many a crises.
My heart had another bout of striking.
This time I was tired of being afraid.
I suddenly felt strong.
I looked Death in the Eyes and said!
Fuck YOU! You Want to take me?
Then just take me! Do it. Kill me!
I am no longer scared of you.
I am tired of being afraid. Do what you have to do!
I lay down ready to die.
But instead of dying, all had become calm.
I was suddenly for the first time really alive.
Alive because somewhere the fear had begun to leave.
Since that day my fear has been falling of like dead skin.
Fear was replaced with love.
Love has become my Life and Living.
Life has become my blessing.
Death is Today my Best Friend, He Sits loyally on my left side.
Guiding my Hand of Destruction to remove those things that no longer serve me in my life.
Wisest Teacher and Master in the World.
The Greatest Guru in Hell.
-by Artin Qiparosa
