Ever since then Iβd been fond of stationeriesβfrom the useful to aesthetic onesβIβm definitely guilty of buying more than I need. I donβt know, but Iβm just constantly attracted to how cute and eye-pleasing they are. I mean, I tried many times to control that urge, but I always find ways to justify my every act of buying. The small notebooks, sticky notes, pens, and fancy paper are already piling up and accumulating dust in the corner, yet as I gazed at them, I strangely didnβt feel regret because I always assured myself that someday I could use them for some project. But when will that some day be?
Even though Iβm guilty with my whim buying, still I canβt say I didnβt feel happiness and satisfaction after I bought them. Perhaps the pleasure that I get from it stems from the unfulfilled wants I got way back my younger days. Before, I was quite frugal with my money because I was afraid that my mother would scold me, and so I just got contented with gazing at those lovely stationeries my classmates had back then. I wanted to also buy them, but I was too afraid to do so. Thatβs why when I got older my yearning for collecting those stationaries grew strong. I treasure those stationeriesβto the point where I become really careful in using them. I still even have the first sticky notes and postcard I received from our scholarship sponsors more than seven years ago. That may sound ridiculous, but thatβs how sentimental I get with those stuff.
At times, I wished I could control that urge because itβs honestly taxing to my budget. That urge just comes all of a sudden, especially when I see adorable stationeryβand speaking of adorable, I again bought some today. Itβs a sticker from a Korean surplus shop, and the moment I laid my eyes on it, I knew Iβd definitely buy it. There are a lot of temptations there; stacks of stationery such as notebooks, planners, colored papers, and notepads are thereβ¦as if tempting me to spend impulsively again, yet I resisted and convinced myself not to spend for a while, not until I saw that sticker. I know Iβll totally regret it later on if I donβt buy it, so with thatβI give in again to my whim haha.
Indeed, Iβm such a slave to this unnecessary attraction, yet Iβm positive Iβm gradually improving in controlling it. Before I spend quite much on them, yet nowβthe amount I spend became more mindful. It's not a fast improvement, but yeahβ¦slowly Iβll get there.
All of the pictures used are taken by yours truly, ridgette.