It’s interesting how some gates pass with little impact or resonance, and then with others… it’s like your whole being just opens up to a deeper, intimate understanding/experience…
Gate 7… t’was said somewhere, something along the lines of, ‘you can step up to lead… or choose NOT to. I don’t have that one defined; and while might’ve strived towards leadership when younger (whether correct in my first trial-and-error phase as a 6/2 or just motivated by/with not-self), my feeling on that choice was definitely the latter. The roof is cozy, and maybe I’m easing into the 6 “role model” in the sense of just being without any deliberate intention to lead or influence. And that was kinda that. No deep-diving to grasp any further complexities of the gate/GeneKey, just content to do my own thing while those with or in resonance with 7 may be off doing their own things with it elsewhere. Easy peasy.
Now, Gate 4, on the other hand… well damn. My personality Venus Leo is 4.6, and second paragraph into the Gene Key… oh yeah. I get this.I knew there was writing to come here.
Whereas the gate 7 experience was super ‘shallow,’ merely grazing the surface of descriptions, kind of overlooking its dynamics at play more in examples of others, from a distance & theoretically - there was this almost immediate “ah ha” of recognition once reading Gene Key 4. Like both diving straight into the core of it and lifting up to a ‘higher-consciousness’ vantage point where could see the threads of its themes weaved through countless scenarios. Both ‘personally’ that have lived through and a whole myriad of collective archetypal stories & dynamics. And seeing the fractals of those microcosmic-macrocosmic levels intertwined - aware of where/how some of those personal dynamics/experiences had been seeded through conditioning from collective programs, where/how some of those collective dynamics are perpetuated through the countless individuals ‘attuned to’ the shadow frequencies. Both individual & collective logic distorted through emotion, and how the two are inseparable - reflections of eachother on multiple levels, the same coding & threads programming & constructing our individual & shared realities.
Like, direct access to endless examples of the Shadow, Gift and Siddhi; not merely intellectually, but sitting right in the middle of the energy in true “Everything, Everywhere, All At Once” (or “Lucy”) style. (Fantastic movies worth watching, if you haven’t already.) Ah yes, “where to begin;” which of all those fractal examples to touch/draw (up)on, as something within this well of archetypal energy encapsulated in Gene Key 4 itches to be extracted & expressed here in writing.
(The 49, however… again, somewhat more detached, shallow, observant from an intellectual level at distance (at least at first, albeit more insights presented themselves over the next days) - seeing its dynamics more at play in larger-scale communal & cultural movements over far longer time frames; even sort of stumped on how/where such energy might/would be experienced & expressed for individuals with it defined. Perhaps that’s just part the nature of the TRIBAL gates/channels/circuitry.)
While I may not have directly related so much to the literal “Intolerance” side of 4’s shadow as much as clearly seeing its presence in collectives, the mere mention of “distorted logic” consequential of ‘unresolved emotional patterns’ shone enough of a ultra-bright spotlight to get it. Perhaps especially so, as I’ve been deconditioning & consciously stepping away from several ‘communities,’ ‘cultures,’ and ‘collectives’ wherein such distorted logic has become increasingly apparent. In particular, many pertaining to “awakening,” “conspiracies,” “new-age spirituality,” “truthers,” etc. (Though we’ll touch on the same principles equally at play in all sorts of other groups, formal & informal.)
Bear with me; this one’s a lengthier journey. While we’re addressing Logical & Tribal gates here, there’s an element of the Abstract - where things may not all come together until the end…
Most reading this will likely be familiar with much within those domains. Namely, the phenomenon of many “taking the red pill,” thinking they’ve “woken up” once seeing the immense corruption in the world, and unconsciously flipping into a ‘black-pill’ ‘doomer’ mentality (at the extreme), complete with an arrogant spiritual ego. One step in the larger journey - though not at all Truthful as the “I’ve awakened, have arrived, and everyone else that’s not here is a slumbering sheep” conception characterizing that stage. This may be a blunt way of putting it for the purpose of amplifying & emphasizing nuanced subtleties that frequently present in less-extreme manifestations; and indeed it’d be inaccurate to generalize with such a blanket statement to encompass everything & everyone in those communities & cult(ures). And of course, there is plenty of factual evidence to form(ulate) much of the (distorted) logic within them which validates the common cynicism/pessimism. One cannot deny that upon diving into the world of “conspiracy theories,” there IS much discouraging truth found. However, as per the 4 and 49 (Reactivity) shadows, there comes influence/impact of (justifiable) emotion that distorts logic and obscures clear, objective perception of unbiased, balanced outlooks.
“Question everything” unconsciously becomes “question everything mainstream… but not the possibility we ourselves may be under the influence of our own cognitive biases & dissonance in blind spots.” Rejection of “the mainstream narrative” is often accompanied with an unconscious swing to the opposite extreme of a different counter-cult(ure) narrative of its own. The lens through which the world is view is switched - but still a lens, shaped by emotionally-rooted distorted logic. i.e. “Governments, corporations, ‘the elite,’ ‘they’ = bad/evil. Us who’ve ‘awakened’ = good. That simple. Wake up and see it.”
Critical thinking get applied selectively to validate the counter-cult(ural) beliefs. Revolutionary intent there, yet still energetically grounded in Reactivity (49 shadow; typically the reactive form of “Rejection;” although the repressive Inert side perhaps also observable in an underlying resentful apathy & resignation, as though “that’s just how things are” and reason for debilitating worst expectations in line with the framework of disempowerment created through projecting greater power upon “the elite” than many will take over their own lives).
Discernment of critically-important details painting an accurate picture of reality’s deeper complexities… nope. Instead: judgement & condemnation in the self-righteous tonality to the “good vs. bad, us versus them” logical framework - Intolerance of not only others’ Truths that exist outside the limited black-or-white paradigm, but of life & reality itself as unconsciously asserting its/their worldview as THE “Truth.” All while blind to the intricate complex of cognitive biases the minds plugged into these belief structures are imprisoned by - no matter how fervent the attempt to place blame on the the government, Illuminati, Khazarian Mafia, big media & pharma, military-industrial complex, interdimensional archons pulling the strings of reptilian bloodlines, the left, the right, Trump, Biden, bad genetics, Mercury retrograde, childhood trauma, etc, etc, etc.
But of course, these patterns & dynamics are not exclusive to those specific communities. They can be found everywhere - in both our outer & inner worlds. After all, these Gene Keys are hardwired into the genetic code - always at work, architecting both our inner personal holographic reality and our external shared ones.
And while it may be easy to spot and point at these types of dynamics playing out in the larger world - whether through the lens of the whole ‘conspiracy-awakening’ stuff, politics, or religious wars - it’s even easier to avoid & overlook the extent to which our own ‘unprocessed emotions’ birth & sustains a plethora of distorted logic taking root like weeds in our own psychology. And its dominating force in our choices as to why we do or don’t do xyz, how we think & feel about abc.
Nor do we typically maintain objective awareness of its rationalizations & fuelling of the 49 shadow of Reactivity. And how together, all that distorted logic & reactivity (including the repressive “inert” variety) lead to the breaking, corruption, implosions & explosions of our relationships - with self, friends, family, partners, coworkers, enemies, our work, play, passions, addictions.
Really wanna do a deep-dive in “shadow work?” Invest in an honest assessment of all the different form(ulations) of logic you’ve (both consciously & unconsciously) relied upon throughout your life - especially that which has been interlinked with Reactivity at root of some of the most significant conflicts, breakdowns, dis-ease, points of friction & challenge, etc. in your life. While bearing in mind:not only does ‘unprocessed emotion’ distort logic, but distorted logic also usually ends up justifying the perpetuation of unhealthy, unprocessed emotions (especially fear & anger), (self-)sabotage, all sorts of destructive (49 keynote) behaviour.
Indeed, the 4 can (and does) formulate logical answers for nearly anything and build up all sorts of reasons rationalizing whatever worldview, self-image, or conception of others (whether individuals or collectives) suits the needs of not-self, ego and cognitive biases… but if you wanna get real about the source of the world’s ills (and much of our personally-experienced discord) - it ain’t in all the external things or logical reasons formulated & propagated as “truths.” Eventually, alot of it traces back to the realm of distorted logic (and corresponding Reactivity).
(Granted, it may not all be that simple; we do, afterall, have 63 other foundational genetic portals through which transformation must occur to rise in frequency from the shadow frequencies to that of the Gifts & Siddhis.)
For me, it was becoming apparent how subtly detrimental this phenomenon of distorted logic was as seeing it in much of the “truther” and “awakening” type stuff - the traces of cynicism, infectious; observing again & again how predictable people’s comments were, regurgitating blameful outlooks, claiming commitments to “truth” and “awakening” yet unaware to the tainting of pure intentions with disempowering anger & frustration, speaking with bitterness-laced prophetic-esque false certainty backed by logic born from all that imbalanced emotion (no matter how justifiable, given our sensitivity as humans to atrocious unfoldments). Often very subtle. But, an ongoing reflection of where I, too, have let cynicism color the lens through which I’ve viewed the world - not one of acceptance, peace & compassion, but resentment towards the ills of the world, toxic distrust of governments & authority, and ultimately a rejection (at least energetically, intellectually & emotionally) of the many institutions & systems of society which I still am required to participate in as part of my human journey & soul purpose.
The 4’s shadow may not merely be an Intolerance of other people, ideas, etc - but of the nature of reality itself, with all its paradoxes, yin & yang dualities & contrasts, and aspects our minds & egos may not prefer, yet are integral puzzle pieces to life.
“Awakening” is not a one-stop destination arrived at once the corruption of our world’s current systems are unveiled, but has levels; further up, it becomes clear that ‘first’ many think is ’it’ is still in the shadow frequency - still within a framework of divisiveness self-righteousness justified by distorted logic. Higher up: UNDERSTANDING. Seeing the perfection of it all in the larger grand design, where every piece of light & dark has its time & place of service in the long-term evolutionary process. Patience & tolerance for the pace of each soul in both the individual & shared journeys of ‘cracking codes’ and unlocking higher levels of consciousness through the transmutation of those lower frequencies. (And perhaps it is within the famous quote, “FORGIVE them for they know not what they do,” we get a glimpse of the Siddhi - that “Christ Consciousness” consistently held in regards as the highest level.)
While we’re still over on the right side of things, with many of the “truther/awakening/conspiracy” programs having a more right-based political-leaning (even if unconsciously) and more right-brained-leaning into the “spirituality” side of things more than the left-logical…
We can see the same dynamics with religion - all sorts of madness justified with distorted logic, tribal Reactivity of the 49 shadow at root of religious-based wars waging throughout history. They’re even at play in the ways many (in our ‘youthful folly’) approach subjects as astrology & Human Design - solar plexus motor energy (“unprocessed emotion”) needing an outlet - whether harmonious or disharmonious, fuelling either sound beneficial or unsound destructive logical formulation on the other side - in combination with ajna not-self seeking certainty, formulating (distorted) logic in attempts to shorten the journey to Understanding that rationalizes all sorts of disempowering self-belief & victimization (which validates remaining INERT and/or REJECTING an actual deeper relationship with oneself, others, life and the work required to level-up). “It’s damn Mercury retrograde.” “What can I do, my moon is in detriment and poorly aspected.” “My 12th house placements are a curse.” “All Aries’/Scorpios/Geminis are xyz.” “Living on my Pluto line is the source of my problems.” Etc, etc. Or, becoming so dogmatic about ‘what Ra said’ as though he’s an infallible prophet & saint whose word is to be followed to the T - becoming so rigid in our thinking about “the mechanics” and ending up looping right back into not-self mind as sound logic gets amplified & distorted, formulating and attempting to live via the direction of “answers” that are not actually truthful nor correct. Let’s be real: it happens. Probably far more often than many of us care to admit, myself included.
And to explore an entirely different set of fractal examples, crossing the threshold to the other side of the spectrum on the left:
The global events having unfolded over the last 3-4 years provide a perfect example of Reactivity, Intolerance and distorted logic on mass scale… in the world of science - which was always supposed to be rooted in logic, continually questioning itself remain to remain unbiased & objective…
What did we see instead? “Trust the $cience.” Politically-driven propaganda campaigns coercing billions into a medical experiment that’s been unquestionably proven UNsafe & UNeffective; while still the results of the experiment - which are always fundamentally critical to evaluate in ANY valid scientific process - have been vehemently shoved under the rug; those who addressed them since the start, aggressively attacked, condemned, and straight-up gaslit at a scale humanity ought to be ashamed of; and those refusing to conform to cult(ural) rituals justified by the tribal (faulty) logic, shamed and practically extradited from society as fired from jobs, banned from public transportation, restaurants, etc. No matter the combination of (manufactured) fear [behind the Reactivity of both “leaders” & the public to embrace the distorted logic to (be) rush(ed) into such a clusterfuck] and sheer greed encoded into corporate cult(ures) [which justifies profit maximization as top priority] that motivated institutional agendas requiring the Rejection of foundational principles of objective science itself… yeah. There are case studies all around, but that one’s hard to miss.
Which segways into the domain where all these phenomena of the 4th & 49th Gene Keys may be most apparent in their expressions: politics.
Indeed, relationships may be the domain of gate 49 - and the political arena, an epicentre for observing the peak displays of the 49’s emotionally-driven Reactive tribal dynamics, rooted in the 4’s distorted logic ceaselessly to prove/defend its point of view at the expense of ignorance to & INTOLERANCE of others’ and the larger UNDERSTANDING that can only come when looking objectively at both sides.
On the left (at the extremes): the recent “woke”-ism as a tribal embodiment of left-brained distorted logic at work, generating & running with theories denying the objectively-scientific Truth of biological gender. The amplification of ideology that in-essence perpetuates sugar-coated racism cloaked in rhetoric of “equality.” The justification of politically-correct virtue-signalling cult(ural) rituals reinforcing tribal doctrine & identity politics (that conveniently protect blue-haired snowflake-Karens’ feelings from getting hurt by the need to grow up, face reality as it is, and accept personal responsibility for their own emotions). A collective bypassing & normalization of epidemic mental-illness, while gaslighting those who don’t buy into the tribal ideologies and extremes of perverted cult(ural) mutations it has been generating as in the wrong.
On the right: while we’ve already touched upon the inversion of “woke” with the “awakened” and cult(ures) leaning more into the right-brained “spiritual” than left-brained logic, there is also the more conventionally-stereotypical politically-associated characteristics of ”conservatism” (even though it may not be obvious to many self-identifying as apolitical and/or “spiritual” or found in “truther/conspiracy”-type circles) - which has its distortions, albeit less colourful and Aquarian in nature. Fear of technological advancement disabling critical-thinking skills, cognitive biases condemning with broad strokes entire developments that have potential for both bad and good. Arrogant self-righteousness with dogmatic beliefs that deny much of the benefic effects of progressive thought, policy, and endeavors. Rejection of advancements in science & modern medicine that save & improve the quality of lives, distorted logic reinforcing beliefs such as “big pharma bad, everything it does is evil” that effectively kill the capacity for mature discernment/discrimination to acknowledge subtleties & nuances necessary for UNDERSTANDING vastly greater complexities than such “good vs. evil” biases. Different variations of mental illness as paranoia finds its distorted logic to justify hyper-reactive extremes of “prepping” for apocalyptic scenarios and religious fanatacism. Lip service given to “freedom” while hypocritically embodying INTOLERANCE for others whose path & purpose doesn’t conform to their own world view; condemning many & much whose evolutionary impulse leads in a direction challenging their cult(ural) beliefs.
(And in all fairness: both paragraphs above may not be 100% free of their own biases, amplification & distortions of ideas - attempts at generalization for sake of articulating simplified principles in fewer words as speaking to the extremities of the spectrum, though losing/lacking details of the broader spectrum of nuances that’d need addressing for increased accuracy… details that I may not have awareness of, no matter how clear some things might seem at times up ‘on the roof’ & “mountain” of sun 52.6. Nor may this properly give credit to the embodiments of Gift & Shadow existing on both the left & right - if those states don’t come with an actual transcendence of them through balanced integration)
There exists lack of Discernment (13 Gift) on both sides: for the left, where boundaries exist, are needed, and serve. (Like, maybe “gender studies” propaganda doesn’t belong in elementary school indoctrination and children incapable of making adult decisions are better not allowed to chop off their dicks & tits…?) If slowing down and pausing the Reactivity to any perceived threats to leftist ideology, we could find plenty more examples of where ‘conservative’ limitations are essential to ensuring progressive mutation catalyzed by unchecked shadowy elements doesn’t get too destructively out of control. (And perhaps equally on the right in different regards, where many new-age cult(ures) have adopted motivational mantras of “there are no limits,” abandoning sound logic for solipsistic self-delusion - the hard reality-check of Saturn’s grounding in universal laws of physics might ultimately serve better than distorted logic justifying ego-appeasing fantasy.)
And on the right: where more flexibility may be required. The Discernment and humility to look beyond their own beliefs and acknowledge that certain boundaries - for which plenty of logic can be formulated to support their rigidness - may be misaligned with the reality of life & its evolution.The Discernment to objectively assess & confess where our own inflexible values perpetuate discord as fuelling “us versus them” duality seen & judged as being pushed exclusively by “elite” authoritarians, while suppressing our own evolutionary potential & impulse through distorted projection of it onto the “others…” effectively (spiritually) bypassing the work of transmuting our own fear of change & death. (In essence, equally as subconsciously controlling as the leftist Deep State ‘dictators’ perceived as a threat and blamed for xyz - no matter all the conscious talk of valuing “freedom;” while even the left have embodied the same patterns, irrational fears having validated ‘Trump.Derangement.Syndrome’ with its reactive comparison of him to Hitler.) The Discernment to maturely embrace where REVOLUTION & REBIRTH are essential - even when aspects of it will inevitably challenge & destroy idealized conceptions of how things “should” be and aspects of tradition held dear.
(We could surely find more fractal variations of these many themes intertwined on both sides; especially considering the unusual flips occurring in recent years with aspects of leftist politics getting more Capricornian-Saturnian, many who once resonated more with liberal philosophy finding aspects of it more in right-leaning sub-cult(ures) now.)
Whether ‘right’ or ‘left,’ there’s Reactivity - just over different things (including at one meta-level, the same thing: each others’ distorted logic.) As Rudd writes in the 49th, “these patterns are built into the nature of relationships…” the relationship between left & right, yin & yang, the distorted logic of left vs. distorted logic of right, progressive vs. conservative, logic vs. religion/spirituality, etc, etc. The external tribal battles, merely a macrocosmic holographic projection of the microcosmic internal coding of our genetics. Even the infamous Timothy Leary wrote/spoke of these same dynamics, not at all from the political angle, but that of neurology - posing the theory (or articulating observation) of there being distinct biological differences at the neurological level between individuals who are wired for & enthusiastically seek progress, development & evolution and those who fear & resist it. (It’d be fascinating to know how the neurology of those at Gift & Siddhi level compare - whereas the distinctions between the progressive & conservative neurology would surely be apparent amongst those predominantly in the shadow frequency, the Gift level of UNDERSTANDING & REVOLUTION might look much different with many more neural networks bridged - and perhaps yet more with the Siddhi level, the processing of such higher frequencies likely requiring an expanded neurological capacity to handle the energy. Especially considering the ‘heart-brain connection’ solar plexus activations at those levels, with the heart & gut having their own neural networks - the full integration of which, yet another fractal of the evolutionary imperative of systems mutating & reorganizing themselves to higher levels of complexity. But lest I digress… unless this be a dance in UNDERSTANDING, grazing upon the 49 REVOLUTION & REBIRTH phenomenon through the lens of 4 logic.)
Though for the majority not having yet undertaken the alchemical work of processing the emotions feeding distorted logic, INTOLERANCE & REACTIVITY it is. The political, ideological, and neurological left’s Rejection of the rights’s values (conservatism’s preservation of certain tradition with sound merit, holistic awareness, spirituality, etc) out of fear of restriction; right’s rejection of left’s merit’s (evolutionary potentials) out of fear of change. (God only knows how many other countless ways a ton of other unprocessed emotion distorts our own logic - all politics, religion, and tribal stuff aside.) And while both may have their revolutionary impulses, though positioned & colored differently - all the best of intentions are destined to fail when built upon foundations of distorted logic & Reactivity.
Communism, fascism, all shades of fundamentalism, this-ism, that-ism… all started on some sort of LOGIC that sounds to be formulated with good intentions & reasons that “make sense;” but when it comes time to implement in reality… distorted logic doesn’t work. Just as equally in our personal lives - we can plug into this tribe or that tribe whose outlooks resonate, or formulate our own logic that makes sense to us; but if we haven’t waited out those emotional waves to arrive at/into clarity having impatiently rushed and unconsciously allowed unprocessed emotions to distort the logic we subscribe to and operate from, we can only ever get so far before looping back into cycles of the shadow states. And predictably, Rejecting the wisdom of sound logic only found via others’ who cognitive biases deactivate our ability to truly perceive & hear - fixedness in beliefs sabotaging the neural bridging into a broader spectrum of information & perspectives required for UNDERSTANDING (and the inner REVOLUTION that must proceed the outer, let alone FORGIVENESS, and REBIRTH.)
Or maybe at its simplest, sparing all the political & cultural angles: it is our own unprocessed emotion & distorted logic (a.k.a. “conditioning”) that allows the justification for - (Half-Heartedly, 29 shadow, ‘over-committed’ to the wrong things & ‘unreliable’ with the right ones) - living lives that don’t truly bring Peace, Satisfaction, Success, and Surprise.
Our human “Youthful Folly.”
Yet, all part of the journey.
We often tend to want to avoid and get out of the shadows ASAP; but they are the foundation - there is much we cannot come to UNDERSTANDING of without having actually gone through it, let alone be fully ready for the FORGIVENESS piece.
Or some shit. Maybe that’s all just my Venus 4.6 getting all creative with its logical formulations that aren’t without their own distortions and not-self Reactivity cloaked in pretty words that sound reasonable yet are still a far reach from the frequency of any sort of true REVOLUTION & REBIRTH. Could’ve felt good to extract in the process, but proved itself as mere distraction with intellectual-masterbation rather than putting the time into doing the work to process my own repressed emotion at root of disharmonious patterns of mind from which I sought escape in the cult(ures) critiqued above and perhaps still to some degree do project onto the boogeymen of a nefarious “elite” and “their” institutional systems; in-process, Rejecting not only the world & life as it is, but simultaneously my higher purpose, richly rewarding connection with others, and a deep Peace & Satisfaction that might only come via deconditioning all the distorted logic and aligning back with the “Cosmic Way.” (Maybe that is what is meant by the inner “REVOLUTION” & “REBIRTH.”)
Though even if so, maybe there are still some nuggets of UNDERSTANDING mixed in there, regardless. Distill at your discretion.
Here, I recommend going back to read both Gene Keys 4 and 49. Perhaps some bridges will be formed to UNDERSTAND both all of the above and Rudd’s writings on them a bit more thoroughly. Or not. 🤷♂️☯️
Feel free to check me on any distorted logic, and/or pitch in on the conversation with whatever insights, perspectives, feedback, contemplations, ah-ha’s, etc. you feel inclined to in the comments… 🙏