That's just so Exhausting, I want to say, leave everything behind and stick to the world where you are happier and where no one will treat you as a threat, but, something is holding you back so that would be hard. But can you still keep it up? Until when are you going to endure everything? But anyways, I hope you get to have a relaxing days too. You need rest for sure. ᕦ⁠⊙⁠෴⁠⊙⁠ᕤ