I believe, as I am getting old, I have increased my insecurities in some areas but also increased my confidence in others. So I would say I am in a neutral position.
I consider my insecurities growth due to aging and lack of the physical condition I used to have. My confidence growth comes from learning many new skills (most of them way more physical than skills I have learned and developed in the past) after I bought the farm and decided to get quite involved in in the renovation of the building.