Today was one of those rare days in my life.
A day of nothingness... No pressure, no deadline, just be present and relax.
The only appointment I had today, was saying goodbye at the organic garden.
There is that feeling of a chapter being closed and a new chapter is on the horizon. In between the pages there is 'peace', nothingness.
Sure I do have conversations with my inner child, as this is pretty scary. Letting everything go and go into full surrender. Then there is that 'waiting' period, not wanting to control everything.
It's not, that I do completely nothing. The past three weeks, was hard working, integrating and facing every single day a new me. Being on the move everyday, biking, sitting in the forest or at the river. I needed to be in motion.
There have been days, I felt a lot of cellular tissue resetting, or my brain making new neurons. And there is that burping, to clear out excessive energy.
My Soul, Body and Mind is in a complete transformation and in synchronization. Which also means, eating only minimum and as light as possible. The past three weeks I had two 'normal' meals with meat. Everything else just yogurt, eggs and veggies. Surprisingly I didn´t lose that much weight, max 2 kilo's.
I had to go out every day, last week I even biked a trail of 70kms with a 30 minute break. Everyday I had to let go of something else and make room for my true-self. It's an intense process and I do it more or less all by myself.
Even took a little friend with me from the forest :-)
In going fully banana's I even had to let go of the practice room I hired, I put my couch for sale, sold my TV, put out my toolset for sale. Every part of my ´ old' life has to make room for a new version of myself. I am about to move my webhosting and I had to redo my website again, like the third time this month. But this time it's going to be integrated with a CRM system, with mail funnels, booking software and so on. A full package. With emboding my new self, I had to adjust my pricing, to a more corresponding with my inner feeling.
The old price, felt like a market conform standard, but what I do isn´t standard and a session is more then an hour. So why would I lower my price, to 'attrack' clients, if the exchange isn´t in align with my self?
But today, today there was just 'peace'... Something I rarely felt inside of me. I accepted it and did some drawing, sitting and doing not much, just being present.
Still feel a bit restless tho.. this is a new experience and I do my best to enjoy and stay present :-)
Timothy
