Imagining what could be. At times, its hard not to. To let your mind, run away with itself. Especially when you get the taste of something, that you enjoy. Feeling like you have to grab it, with both hands or otherwise you may never get to enjoy it again. But we all know what happens, if we hold onto things too tightly.
I just have to trust. To surrender to this beautiful wave that has entered my life. The very two things that I was talking to a wonderful person about, just yesterday. How, to really experience life, you have to surrender to it and you have to trust. Trust that all will be, as it should be.
We live in a world that is very controlling, so it makes sense that we, as a product of that world, would also want to control, the parts of our selves that are still our own. But in doing so, we cut ourselves off, from really being able to feel. To feel life fully.
When you control something, you begin to shut it down.
So I sit with this feeling of wanting to be more in control, because it's something I really want. Yet knowing, that I need to just trust. To allow myself, to just
be present with everything that I am feeling.
It's such a strong urge though. To just grab it. But that's also the beauty of it. The fact that I have these strong feelings. This excitement that is growing inside of me.
So I breathe.
I breathe and I write.
I listen to music and I dance.
Those other things that I also really enjoy. And I feel myself finally begin to surrender.
To not doubt myself. To not undervalue myself. To pour myself into this new dance, in my life. One that is helping to awaken an important part of myself.
all the photos were taken by me.
