Todos en la vida podemos pasar por algunas situaciones difíciles que nos dejen alguna marca no fisica pero si emocional que quizas muchos no van a entender y pensaran que exageras pero cada quien vive sus procesos a su manera y aunque sanar no es nada sencillo, se puede lograr si ponemos de nuestra parte, yo soy de las que piensa que la mente influye mucho en la persona.
Hace unos meses atrás pase por un momento de mi vida en la que cai en una depresión y ansiedad que me estaba consumiendo, aunque soy de las personas que trato de no demostrar que tengo problemas y externamente las personas de mi alrededor veian a la misma eglis de siempre que reia pero por dentro sentia que moria.
Es algo incluso dificil de explicar porque aunque me considero una mujer fuerte siempre me a gustado solventar mis problemas yo misma y no tener ni que victimizarme, ni mucho menos esperar que alguien hago algo por mi, me da aveces como pena pedir ayuda aunque después de pasar por esto entendi que aveces hay que gritar ayuda si es necesario para que el cuerpo y la persona no colapse, tambien que es normal sentirse vulnerable ante situaciones que nos hacen daño, eso no es ser debil sino que te vuelve más humano.
Esos meses fueron duros les juro que sentia un cansancio, estres y desánimo total de todo, me sentia como perdida como sin rumbo sin ninguna motivación, aparte que la depresión y ansiedad me estaba consumiendo, lloraba sin razón, solo queria dormir, no tenia concentración para nada incluso escribir sobre mi vida se me hacia difícil, me sentia tan perdida que necesitaba reecontrarme porque tenia tanta carga emocional y necesitaba ayuda.
Asi que comence a ir a una psicologa que me ayudo con todo lo que me estaba pasando, lo primero que hice fue drenar y soltar todo lo que llevaba por dentro que no contaba primero por no querer a molestar a nadie con mis problemas y segundo porque siempre me he sentido que puedo sola con todo, en la primera cita a la que fui les puedo confesar que sacar eso que me dolia en ese momento fue como un alivio, literal senti como si me quitaran un peso de mis hombros.
La psicologa me hizo sentir en confianza de poder contarle todo y me dio muchas herramientas que me ayudaron a ir sintiendome mejor cada dia, especialmente me ayudo manejar mis emociones y tambien me hizo entender que no estan mal sentirse cansado porque somos seres humanos no robot, es normal y más por todo lo que yo tengo que hacer, todas mis responsabilidades.
Aparte de eso entendí que no puedo vivir en base a complacer a las personas, sino preocuparme por ser una persona feliz porque mis hijos necesitan a una mamá feliz no perfecta porque nadie lo es, entonces aparte de ir al psicólogo tambien comence a entrenar y todo eso me ayudo muchísimo a sentirme mejor cada dia y recuperar esa motivación, salir de ese hueco en el que esa situación me habia dejado.
Cuando pienso en el ayer y el ahora, me veo en el espejo veo una persona totalmente diferente, en ese momento me veia gris y asi me veian los demás siempre me preguntaban si estaba enferma o me pasaba algo, porque por dentro estaba gritando que necesitaba ayuda, gracias a Dios di el paso en buscar esas herramientas que me ayudaron a sentirme mejor conmigo misma y ahora me siento más plena y feliz, por supuesto no tengo una vida perfecta porque en el camino se pueden presentar situaciones pero ahora se como afrontarlas de una forma en la que no dejo que me afecte porque me preocupo más por mi y se que no quiero volver a pasar por esos dias de depresión y ansiedad.
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Publicación traducida por deepl.com
We all go through difficult situations in life that leave us with emotional scars that many people may not understand and think we are exaggerating, but everyone experiences their own processes in their own way, and although healing is not easy, it can be achieved if we do our part. I am one of those who believes that the mind has a great influence on a person.
A few months ago, I went through a period in my life when I fell into depression and anxiety that was consuming me. Although I am one of those people who tries not to show that I have problems, and outwardly the people around me saw the same Eglis as always, laughing, inside I felt like I was dying.
It's something that's even difficult to explain because, although I consider myself a strong woman, I've always liked to solve my problems myself and not have to play the victim, much less wait for someone to do something for me. Sometimes I feel embarrassed to ask for help, although after going through this I understood that sometimes you have to cry out for help if necessary so that your body and your mind don't collapse. I also learned that it's normal to feel vulnerable in situations that hurt us. That's not being weak; it makes you more human.
Those months were hard. I swear I felt exhausted, stressed, and totally discouraged about everything. I felt lost, aimless, and unmotivated. On top of that, depression and anxiety were consuming me. I cried for no reason. I just wanted to sleep. I couldn't concentrate on anything. Even writing about my life was difficult. I felt so lost that I needed to find myself again because I had so much emotional baggage and needed help.
So I started going to a psychologist who helped me with everything that was happening to me. The first thing I did was to drain and release everything I was carrying inside that I hadn't shared before, firstly because I didn't want to bother anyone with my problems, and secondly because I have always felt that I can handle everything on my own. I can confess that at the first appointment I went to, getting that which was hurting me at the time out was a relief. I literally felt as if a weight had been lifted from my shoulders.
The psychologist made me feel confident that I could tell her everything and gave me many tools that helped me feel better every day. She especially helped me manage my emotions and also made me understand that it's okay to feel tired because we are human beings, not robots. It's normal, especially with everything I have to do and all my responsibilities.
Apart from that, I understood that I can't live my life based on pleasing other people, but rather worry about being a happy person because my children need a happy mom, not a perfect one, because nobody is perfect. So, apart from going to the psychologist, I also started exercising, and all of that helped me a lot to feel better every day and regain my motivation, to get out of the hole that situation had left me in.
When I think about yesterday and today, I look in the mirror and see a totally different person. At that time, I saw myself as gray, and that's how others saw me. They always asked me if I was sick or if something was wrong, because inside I was screaming that I needed help. Thank God I took the step to find the tools that helped me feel better about myself, and now I feel more fulfilled and happy. Of course, I don't have a perfect life because situations can arise along the way, but now I know how to deal with them in a way that doesn't affect me because I care more about myself and I know that I don't want to go through those days of depression and anxiety again.
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