¡Saludos Hivers!, en especial a los de esta Comunidad de Bienestar Holus&Lotus. Gracias a la motivación de la amiga para formar parte de la Iniciativa Esa Vida Nuestra propuesta por la amiga
, me lleno amor y valentía para compartir mi experiencia Cuando toqué fondo. Una experiencia de vida, que no te marca, te transforma. Esa vida nuestra, que nos presenta desafíos llenos de aprendizaje para que seamos mejor persona y aprendamos a amar la vida.
Greetings Hivers, especially to those of this Holus&Lotus Wellness Community. Thanks to the motivation of friend
to be part of the Initiative That Life of Ours proposed by friend
, I was filled with love and courage to share my experience When I hit rock bottom. A life experience that doesn't mark you, it transforms you. That life of ours, which presents us with challenges full of learning so that we can be better people and learn to love life.
Conocí la soledad, el rechazo, el miedo, la tristeza y depresión, el estar en un sitio donde no quería, sentía que todo era injusto conmigo y hasta con mi bebé. Aguardaba en silencio, sin llorar a que todo pasara, y sin darme cuenta me encerré tanto en mi misma, encapsulando mis emociones, hasta que caí. Caí y toqué fondo.
Todo en mi interior se fue desmoronando. Quería volver a empezar y no encontraba cómo. Recuerdo que dejé de tomarme fotos, porque cuando me veía una fotografía donde aparecía no me reconocía, decía que no era yo, porque no tenía brillo, quizás ni sombra tampoco, había perdido mi sonrisa y fue cuando comencé a comprender que me estaba muriendo por dentro, tenía que hacer algo de inmediato.
In 2017, my husband passed away, I lost my job, I lost my home and I had to leave home with a high-risk pregnancy. Everything was so fast and at the same time, I did not assimilate anything, only that I had to rest. I knew loneliness, rejection, fear, sadness and depression, being in a place where I did not want to be, I felt that everything was unfair to me and even to my baby. I waited in silence, without crying for everything to happen, and without realizing it, I closed myself in so much, encapsulating my emotions, until I fell. I fell and hit rock bottom. Everything inside me was falling apart. I wanted to start over and I couldn't find a way. I remember that I stopped taking pictures of myself, because when I saw a picture where I appeared I did not recognize myself, I said it was not me, because I had no shine, maybe no shadow either, I had lost my smile and that was when I began to understand that I was dying inside, I had to do something immediately.
Cuando toqué fondo no fue una rápida caída, fue como descender lentamente, mientras el peso del cuerpo, de las emociones y de los pensamientos me hacían inmóvil, mientras me alejaba de la luz y me acercaba al absoluto silencio, sentía como el oxígeno se agotaba y llegaba al desespero.
Cuando toqué fondo caí en un vacío absoluto, fue una experiencia para nada agradable, pero no me quedé allí, logré conseguir la luz y salir.
When I hit bottom it has been the most terrible process that I have had to live, but without a doubt it left me not only a great learning of life, it helped me to achieve an awakening of consciousness, and to be reborn in a new person to live a new life.When I hit bottom it was not a quick fall, it was like descending slowly, while the weight of the body, emotions and thoughts made me immobile, while I moved away from the light and approached the absolute silence, I felt how the oxygen was exhausted and I reached despair.When I hit bottom I fell into an absolute void, it was not a pleasant experience at all, but I did not stay there, I managed to get the light and get out.
Fui llenándome de energía positiva. Lo cual me dio la fuerza necesaria para empezar a domar mis pensamientos, a cambiarlos por pensamientos sanos, constructivos. Logré respirar mejor, dormir mejor y sentirme bien. Ya había luz en mí y podía ver por donde caminar, por dónde empezar.
No fue un caminar fácil, para nada. Ni algo que logré de la noche a la mañana. Me llevó tiempo.
Al lidiar con las partes más oscura de mí, me ayudó a desarrollar mi amor propio con humildad y gratitud. A darle un rumbo a mi vida, a aprender a tomar mejores decisiones para mí y mi hijo, a dejar atrás todo lo malo, malos hábitos, comportamientos errados y me ayudó a reaprender a ser valiente.
I started recognizing what I was feeling, I stopped hiding it and trying to unburden everything, that's when I felt a little relief. And I started transforming my dark inner self with light emotions, filling every space with gratitude and reconnecting myself with the energy of love, self-love and love for life. I was filling myself with positive energy. This gave me the necessary strength to begin to tame my thoughts, to change them for healthy, constructive thoughts. I managed to breathe better, sleep better and feel good. There was light in me and I could see where to walk, where to start. It was not an easy walk, not at all. Nor was it something I achieved overnight. It took time.In dealing with the darkest parts of me, it helped me to develop my self-love with humility and gratitude. To give my life a direction, to learn to make better decisions for myself and my son, to leave behind all the bad things, bad habits, wrong behaviors and helped me to relearn to be brave.
Me recuperé, me salvé y sané. Pero ya no soy la misma, miro diferente, pienso y escucho diferente, tacto diferente, mis sentidos están más amplios. Estoy llena de luz y amor.
Y desde mi amor invito a los amigos y
a que se animen a participar en esta maravillosa inicativa, Esta Vida Nuestra
Thanks to the divinity that placed angels in my life who helped me a lot, through their teachings I managed to balance my mind with my soul, I learned to know myself, and to build myself. I read many books of motivation and self-improvement, I cultivated my spirituality with prayer, contemplation and meditation. I gave movement to my body, I released tensions with exercises. Now everything flows in my life.
I recovered, I was saved and healed. But I am no longer the same, I look differently, I think and listen differently, I touch differently, my senses are wider. I am full of light and love.
- Traductor al inglés: Deepl | English Translator:Deepl
- Fotografías propias tomadas con mi celular Redmi 9 | Own pictures taken with my Redmi 9 cell phone.