Hay un proverbio biblico que me gusta mucho y es que hay cuidar de nuestro corazón porque de el mana la vida, es muy real que debemos cuidar de lo que llevamos por dentro y no llenarnos de rencor por nada ni nadie porque eso solo nos daña a nosotros mismos y nos hace mal.
Desde pequeño aprendi a que las acciones de los demás no nos definen a nosotros y tampoco dependen de nosotros, sino de cada persona, tambien aprendi que el odio destruye a la persona que lo siente almenos eso me enseño mi mamá a que debo aprender a seguir adelante y no guardar rencor porque eso me contamina a mi y no me deja avanzar.
Yo recuerdo que cuando estaba pequeño llegue a sentirme muy mal por cosas que hacia mi papá por ejemplo muchas veces llego a hacer a un lado a mis hermanos y a mi por salir con su pareja en ese momento pense que podia llegar a llenarme de rencor porque veia fotos y pensaba que como el podia ser asi con sus hijos y no importarle pero no dependia de mi ni de mis hermanos que el cambiara su manera de pensar.
Además algo que siempre me dice mi mamá no debemos hacer lo que no nos nace de corazón y es verdad porque es horrible hacer algo obligado, quizas a el no le nacia en ese momento compartir con nosotros y bueno no lo hacia, tampoco lo podíamos forzar porque eso esta muy mal simplemente lo deje asi y segui adelante, aunque en una oportunidad le dije como me hacia sentir su comportamiento porque otra cosa buena es sacar eso del corazón y expresarnos, porque guardarse cosas tampoco es bueno, pero apesar de todo le dije a mi papá que no lo odiaba por eso, solo todo lo dejaria en manos de Dios que es el único que nos puede juzgar por las acciones que tengamos en este mundo.
Mi papá incluso un dia se sorprendió tanto que me dijo que parecia un adulto pero pienso que quizás gracias a eso que me toco vivir por el me toco madurar antes de tiempo por ver todas esas acciones de su parte que sabia que estaban mal pero como les dije antes no dependian de mi ni eran culpa de sus hijos sino de el que en ese momento no tenia como que sus prioridades como padre claras por eso las personas que tienen hijos deben estar seguros porque hay niños que vienen al mundo y los descuidan y no se hacen responsables, recuerden que los hijos no pidieron venir a este mundo asi que es su responsabilidad estar al pendiente de darles amor, atención y cuidados.
Mis hermanos mayores vivieron cosas mucho peores con el, ellos me contaron que mi papá incluso ni les pasaba dinero para sus cosas, los ignoraba y a su mamá le tocaba hacer muchos sacrificios por ellos mientras mi papá seguia con su vida como si nada y ellos ya estaban cansados y no esperaban nada de el y tampoco les importaba si cambiaba o no porque ya ellos estan más grandes y piensan que ya no lo necesitan.
Creo que eso tambien esta mal porque es nuestro papá y aunque tiene muchas fallas siempre lo vamos a necesitar pero entiendo que quizás ellos se llenaron de rencor, no supieron hablar y sacar eso que llevaban por dentro y sanar eso y por eso piensan asi, pero el odio nunca es bueno porque es algo que nos contamina y envenena, debemos aprender a perdonar las acciones de otros porque somos seres humanos y no somos perfectos.
Aunque la relación con mi papá no es la mejor el trata de cambiar, se que aún le falta mucho por mejorar como padre pero creo que el se ira dando cuenta que todas sus acciones han traido consecuencias por ejemplo con mis hermanos que no tienen buena relación con el, mientras tanto yo lo disculpo y no le guardare nunca odio es mi papá y lo quiero pero se que más adelante cuando sea un adulto no voy hacer nada de lo que el hizo sino que voy a romper ese patrón y sere mucho mejor.
Gracias por llegar hasta aqui y leerme...
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There is a biblical proverb that I really like, which says that we must take care of our hearts because life flows from them. It is very true that we must take care of what we carry inside and not fill ourselves with resentment for anything or anyone because that only hurts us and does us harm.
From a young age, I learned that the actions of others do not define us and do not depend on us, but on each person. I also learned that hatred destroys the person who feels it. At least that is what my mother taught me: that I must learn to move forward and not hold grudges because that contaminates me and prevents me from moving forward.
I remember when I was little, I used to feel very bad about things my dad did. For example, he often pushed my siblings and me aside to go out with his partner. At the time, I thought I could become filled with resentment because I saw photos and thought, “How could he be like that with his children and not care?” But it was not up to me or my siblings to change his way of thinking.
Also, something my mom always tells me is that we shouldn't do things that don't come from the heart, and it's true because it's awful to do something you feel forced to do. Maybe he didn't feel like sharing with us at that moment, and well, he didn't. We couldn't force him either because that's really wrong. I just left it at that and moved on. Although on one occasion I told him how his behavior made me feel because it's good to get things off your chest and express yourself, because keeping things to yourself isn't good either. But despite everything, I told my dad that I didn't hate him for that, I would just leave everything in God's hands because He is the only one who can judge us for our actions in this world.
One day, my dad was so surprised that he told me I seemed like an adult, but I think that maybe because of what I had to go through, I had to mature before my time because I saw all those actions on his part that I knew were wrong. But as I said before, they didn't depend on me, nor were they the fault of his children, but rather his, because at that time he didn't have clear priorities as a father. That's why people who have children must be sure, because there are children who come into the world and are neglected and not taken care of. Remember that children did not ask to come into this world, so it is your responsibility to be attentive to giving them love, attention, and care.
My older siblings went through much worse with him. They told me that my dad didn't even give them money for their things, he ignored them, and their mom had to make many sacrifices for them while my dad went on with his life as if nothing had happened. They were tired and didn't expect anything from him, nor did they care if he changed or not because they are older now and think they no longer need him.
I think that's wrong too because he's our dad, and even though he has many flaws, we'll always need him. But I understand that maybe they were filled with resentment, didn't know how to talk about it and get it off their chests and heal, and that's why they think that way. But hatred is never good because it contaminates and poisons us. We must learn to forgive the actions of others because we are human beings and we are not perfect.
Although my relationship with my dad isn't the best, he's trying to change. I know he still has a long way to go as a father, but I think he'll realize that all his actions have had consequences, for example with my siblings, who don't have a good relationship with him. In the meantime, I forgive him and will never hold a grudge against him. He is my father, and I love him, but I know that later, when I am an adult, I will not do anything he did. Instead, I will break that pattern and be much better.