Resumen de la primera parte de Visiones que puedes leer AQUI: 👇🏻👇🏻
Mi hermano me habĂa pedido que lo acompañara urgente, no quise preguntar nada por el estado en el que estaba al haber perdido a su esposa e hijos a causa de la Peste Negra, estaba muy mal, pero cuando me dĂ cuenta me estaba llevando a ese castillo tenebroso que habĂa visto innumerable cantidad de veces en mis sueños, el castillo donde estaba ese hombre que se alimentaba de sangre ¡estaba aterrada!...
Summary of the first part of Visions which you can read HERE:
My brother had asked me to accompany him urgently, I didn't want to ask anything because of the state he was in, having lost his wife and children to the Black Death, he was very ill, but when I realized he was taking me to that dark castle that I had seen countless times in my dreams, the castle where that man who fed on blood was, I was terrified!...
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–¿Qué? ¿Nostradamus me estás llevando con tu amigo? ¿El mismo que se alimenta de sangre humana? ¿El mismo de mis sueños aterradores?
—SĂ Antoine, ¡lo siento! Pero necesito que me hagas un favor es que Jairus está muy enfermo, no te preocupes llevo 2 dĂas observándolo no es la Peste Negra, solo está muy agotado y necesita ser alimentado, pero yo no puedo estar aquĂ, debo ir al pueblo a tratar de ayudar a la gente. Necesito que te quedes y le administres lo que te dirĂ© hasta que despierte.
—¿Qué? ¿Me vas a dejar sola con él?
—Antoine tranquila, Jairus no es lo que parece, Ă©l no te hará daño, además está muy dĂ©bil para hacer nada y estará bien alimentado. Yo jamás te pondrĂa en riesgo hermana mĂa, pero Ă©l es un gran amigo, me ha ayudado en los momentos que más lo he necesitado e incluso esa ayuda ha llegado a ti, aunque no lo sepas porque no te he querido contar, querĂa que te alejaras de Ă©l, pero creo que no tengo más opciĂłn.
—Está bien hermano, confĂo ciegamente en ti, tĂş dime que tengo que hacer y lo harĂ© por ti, no quiero darte más trabajo que el que ya tienes, ni poner peros. Dije con un profundo pesar.
—¡Gracias Hermana! me dio las indicaciones, varias bolsas de sangre como otras que Ă©l ya le estaba administrando, me dejĂł y se fue, vi aquello aterrada, pero no podĂa hacer nada más.
Al entrar en la habitaciĂłn principal estaba ahĂ, debajo de las sábanas de santin y la cama de plata con terciopelo, nunca habĂa visto a un ser tan hermoso en mi vida, parecĂa como si viniera de otro mundo, bueno, parecĂa no ¡asĂ lo era! su belleza no se parecĂa a nada que hubiera visto antes.
SentĂa como si ese castillo ya lo hubiera visitado, sabĂa dĂłnde estaba la mayorĂa de las cosas porque lo habĂa visto cientos de veces en mis sueños, asĂ que hice lo que mi hermano me dejĂł dicho, intentaba sentar a Jairus que estaba demasiado dĂ©bil para abrir los ojos y le daba a tomar sangre cada 6 horas, no sĂ© cĂłmo, pero al sentir el olor abrĂa la boca y tragaba.
Cada noche me acostaba en la habitaciĂłn de al lado y colocaba seguro a la puerta, me daba mucho miedo, aunque sabĂa que era absurdo porque de seguro Ă©l tenĂa la llave del cerrojo, pero internamente me daba un poco de tranquilidad y me engañaba a mi misma con una falsa seguridad.
Siempre iba con mucho miedo cada 6 horas cuando me tocaba entrar a aquella habitaciĂłn a alimentarlo, pero no sĂ© en quĂ© momento todo empezĂł a cambiar y mi terror empezĂł a disiparse, en la noche tenĂa sueños placenteros con Ă©l, no podĂa recordarlos despuĂ©s, pero me levantaba de buen humor y muy descansada, mis pesadillas con figuras fantasmagĂłricas y monstruos habĂa desaparecido, por fin podĂa dormir bien en mis 35 años de vida.
Y ahora ya no tenĂa miedo, al contrario, iba muy feliz cada vez que debĂa entrar a esa habitaciĂłn, aunque Ă©l no despertaba del todo, pero su color se veĂa un poco mejor y absorbĂa la sangre con mayor fuerza, estaba empezando a sentir la necesidad de que despertara, querĂa conocerlo, querĂa saber de Ă©l, de ese ser al que habĂa cuidado ya hacĂa una semana.
DespuĂ©s de unos dĂas ya tenĂa mi rutina hecha, asĂ que, entrĂ© a la habitaciĂłn y de repente lo vi, ¡estaba sentado! no lo podĂa creer, se habĂa levantado por fin, corrĂ a verlo y a tocarlo, ya lo sentĂa como parte de mĂ y es que lo habĂa cuidado demasiado y deseado cada noche que despertara para hablar con Ă©l, pero al correr y pararme frente a Ă©l me conseguĂ con una mirada aterradora.
Al verle de esa forma me asusté y le respondà de una vez haciendo una reverencia...
—Señor ¡Soy Antoine, a sus servicios!
—¿QuĂ© haces aquĂ?... ÂżQuiĂ©n te trajo?. Me dijo, parecĂa entre nervioso y molesto.
—El Doctor Michel Nostredame me pidiĂł el favor que lo cuidara hasta que despertara. Le expliquĂ© que al principio Michael pensĂł que podrĂa haberle afectado la Peste Negra, pero que lo descartĂł y por eso me pidiĂł cuidarlo.
—¿Michel cĂłmo está? Antes de desmayarme recuerdo que me dijo que habĂa perdido a su familia y se sentĂa muy mal. Dijo con algo que parecĂa tal vez Âżdolor? No estaba segura.
—Lo ha ido aceptando poco a poco, es un golpe muy duro, su vida se habĂa centrado en su familia y sus estudios desde que se casĂł, pero ya no hay nada que hacer... eran mis sobrinos asĂ que... al decir aquello me interrumpiĂł.
—¡Espera! ¿Eran tus sobrinos? ¿Eres su cuñada?. Me dijo impresionado.
—No, soy hermana de Michel, pero de diferentes madres. Le expliquĂ© que me habĂa criado en el campo, por eso me habĂa mantenido a salvo de la Peste y que me habĂa pedido cuidarlo como un favor personal. Al decir esto Ăşltimo, bajo la vista, parecĂa sentirse muy mal, pero no fĂsicamente sino emocionalmente Âżtal vez? Otra vez no estaba segura, y se recostĂł en la cama otra vez.
—Tengo la otra porciĂłn de sangre que se debe tomar hoy en este frasco de barro, por favor avĂseme cuando quiera que se la dĂ©. Al decir aquello respondiĂł sobresaltado.
—¿Sangre? ¿Por qué me estás ofreciendo esa sangre?. Dijo mirándome a los ojos directamente.
—No se preocupe señor Jairus, yo sé que usted es un vampiro.
—¿Qué dijiste? Se levantó de ipso facto.
AsĂ que se lo contĂ© todo, que sabĂa quiĂ©n era, que sabĂa que nos habĂa ayudado a nosotros en el pueblo muchas veces, que le pagĂł sus estudios a Michel y que se alimentaba de personas, pero que intentaba no hacerle un daño mayor a nadie. Le dije todo, excepto la verdad, que soñaba con Ă©l todo el tiempo, que morĂa por conocerlo y hablar con Ă©l desde hace muchĂsimo tiempo cuando yo estaba en el campo.
Sin embargo, solo se acostĂł y no hablĂł más, me sentĂ devastada, algo en mi interior se rompiĂł, asĂ que solo me fui a mi habitaciĂłn y cerrĂ© la puerta, no sĂ© por quĂ© me sentĂa tan mal ÂżquĂ© esperaba? Es una persona que no me conoce y estaba en su casa sin su permiso, era como debĂa responder, lo sabĂa, pero aun asĂ me sentĂa demasiado triste, pero Âżpor quĂ©? Si ni siquiera lo conocĂa.
Igual fui en la tarde a ofrecerle otra vez su alimento, ya no me tratĂł mal, pero sentĂa que no querĂa verme a los ojos, al contrario de Ă©l yo sĂ querĂa ver esos ojos rojos hermosos, sentĂa tantas ganas de tocarlo, pero obviamente no me iba acercar, intentĂ© arreglar su cama cuando se levantĂł por fin de ella y me detuvo con su mano en mi muñeca, sentĂ como un corrientazo desde ese lugar, que luego se extendiĂł por todo mi cuerpo, esas manos frĂas se sentĂan tan bien.
–Antoine no hace falta, no te preocupes, yo lo hago, no estás aquà para eso, no eres ninguna servidumbre.
–No se preocupe Sr Jairus, yo solo quiero ayudarlo, usted aún está débil.
–¡No! de verdad ¡no quiero que lo hagas! eres la hermana de mi mejor amigo, te agradezco enormemente todo lo que has hecho por mĂ, no puedo dejar que actĂşes como servidumbre, no lo necesito.
Al decirme aquello me derretĂ por completo, me lo dijo viĂ©ndome a los ojos y ya no se veĂan aterradores, ahora se veĂa dulces, piadosos, hermosos como los habĂa visto en mis sueños. Este era el Jairus que veĂa en mis primeros sueños, el que me hacĂa sentir protegida de mi misma y mis visiones aterradoras.
Los dĂas siguientes no me dejĂł servirle más su alimento, al contrario, contrato a una persona para que me hiciera comida a mi, aun cuando yo no lo necesitaba, yo querĂa seguirlo haciendo. Caminaba por el castillo y me veĂa mientras intentaba mantenerme distraĂda, pero cuando volteaba a verlo fingĂa no verme.
Un dĂa cuando me sirvieron la comida se acercĂł y se sentĂł en la mesa conmigo, me miraba mientras comĂa, y yo ya no podĂa si quiera tragar, solo querĂa ver esa mirada seductora y hermosa, de repente se empezĂł a reĂr con la sonrisa más bella que habĂa visto jamás en mi vida.
–Sigue comiendo, solo querĂa acompañarte. Me dijo con mirada amable.
–Es que no tengo hambre. Dije bajando la mirada y ruborizada, entonces se levantó y se fue.
Y asĂ empezĂł a hacerlo los dĂas siguientes, se sentaba a verme comer, solo eso, por un momento pensĂ© que habĂa decidido alimentarme para luego comerme, pero apartĂ© ese pensamiento de mi cabeza por uno más placentero, esos labios y esos ojos. Y entonces un dĂa empezĂł a hablar...
–Antoine eres una mujer demasiado hermosa.
–Gra...Gra...Gracias... dije casi ahogándome con la comida.
–Quisiera sentarme a hablar para tratar de conocerte más, pero tengo miedo por ti. Me dijo viéndome directamente a la cara con esos maravillosos ojos, pero por supuesto al escuchar aquello enmudecà por completo.
–No te preocupes no te harĂ© daño, jamás podrĂa hacer eso, pero podrĂa hacer otras cosas que no serán muy seguras para ti...
SeguĂa muda y ahora más ruborizada.
–Debo ser franco, no soy un niño, tengo 300 años, ya lo debes saber, tú eres demasiado inocente para entender muchas cosas y no quiero ponerte en riesgo de ningún tipo.
–¿Por qué riesgo entonces? ¿sino me hará daño? Dije asombrada.
–El riesgo que implicarĂa pasar una vida junto a mĂ. Al decir aquello bajĂł la vista y sentĂ su gran pesar, realmente lo dijo con mucho dolor, ahora sĂ comprendĂa sus expresiones despuĂ©s de convivir juntos tanto tiempo. Pero no más dolor del que yo sentĂ.
–Sé que aun estas confundida, sé que no sabes que sientes, pero yo sà conozco bien la naturaleza humana, la he visto durante demasiado tiempo porque la he estudiado, además me conozco demasiado bien a mà y no quiero que esto avance, necesito que te vayas de regreso a tu casa en el campo.
Al decirme todo aquello lo comprendĂ, pero aun asĂ querĂa estar segura y me armĂ© de la mayor fortaleza del mundo que jamás habĂa sentido y le pregunté…
–¿Sientes lo mismo? Dije mirándolo a los ojos directamente.
–¡Sà Antoine! siento exactamente lo mismo, pero esto no puede ser, no es bueno para ti. Y bajó nuevamente su hermosa mirada.
Al decir aquello mis lágrimas empezaron a salir y a derramarse por mis mejillas, sin parar de caer...
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–¡No llores por favor Antoine! ¡confĂa en mi esto es lo mejor!
Iba a levantarse y acercarse a mi, cuando en ese momento Nostradamus irrumpió en el comedor y me sequé las lágrimas lo más rápido que pude.
–¡Hermano Jairus estás bien! Dijo Nostradamus con mucha alegrĂa.
–¡SĂ hermano Michel! gracias a Antoine y a ti –dijo bajando la cara– Le decĂa a Antoine que debe regresar a su casa en el campo, donde estará segura de la plaga porque además necesito ponerme a trabajar contigo para tratar de detener todo esto.
–¡SĂ, es cierto Antoine! debes regresar a un lugar seguro, has hecho un excelente trabajo, pero debo protegerte, además Jairus y yo debemos trabajar, por favor ve a recoger tus cosas.
No dije nada, mantuve la cara baja, salĂ corriendo llorando a recoger mis cosas, y mientras lo hacĂa Jairus entrĂł a mi habitaciĂłn, no podĂa parar de llorar, estaba molesta y dolida, pero era demasiado educada para decirle algo, no subĂ la cara y entonces Ă©l se acercĂł a mĂ.
–¿Antoine estás bien?, ¿Me das permiso de abrazarte por favor?
Me detuve, mis lágrimas seguĂan corriendo, pero no pude evitar voltear a verlo y entonces se acercĂł y me abrazĂł.
No sĂ© cuántos minutos fueron esos, pero nunca me habĂa sentido más segura en mis 35 años de vida, odiaba que pensara que a su lado no iba a estar segura, cuando toda mi vida habĂa sido demasiada inseguridad con monstruos, fantasmas acompañándome por todos lados y visiones nocturnas, solo podĂa dormir tranquila estando cerca de Ă©l ÂżquĂ© de malo podrĂa tener pasar mi vida con alguien como Ă©l? No lo comprendĂa, pero tampoco iba a preguntar, no tenĂa derecho, yo no era nadie y Ă©l era casi un Dios.
SeguĂa llorando en su pecho mientras lo abrazaba y entonces subiĂł mi barbilla y sin saber en quĂ© momento me dio un ligero beso en los labios y me dijo nuevamente mientras me abrazaba:
–Es lo mejor para ti, pero siempre estaré pendiente de ti y te protegeré Antoine.
Entonces tomĂł mi maleta y me llevĂł abajo donde Nostradamus me esperaba para llevarme de regreso al campo.
No dije nada en el camino, sentĂa que Nostradamus lo sabĂa todo, probablemente lo habĂa visto en sus visiones, asĂ que ni siquiera preguntĂł ni dijo nada, todo fue un absoluto silencio hasta que llegue a la casa y despuĂ©s todo lo que hice fue llorar durante dĂas, Âżpor quĂ© no le dije nada? ÂżPor quĂ© me quede callada? Esa educaciĂłn que me habĂan dado era horrible, debĂamos tener respeto y no hablar cuando no debĂamos, pero…
ÂżQuĂ© pasaba con nuestros sentimientos?, ÂżPor quĂ© no podĂamos expresarnos?, ÂżPor quĂ© me sentĂa tan poca cosa como para luchar por Ă©l?, ÂżPor quĂ© tuve que nacer en un campo sin educaciĂłn formal?, ÂżPor quĂ© mi padre me negĂł y no me diĂł un apellido? Âżpor quĂ© nacĂ con esta maldiciĂłn de tener estas visiones?, ÂżquĂ© clase de monstruo era yo? Cientos de pensamientos negativos recurrentes me cruzaban por la cabeza cada segundo de esos dĂas, no podĂa dormir ni comer y un dĂa despuĂ©s de tanto cansancio caĂ en un profundo sueño.
AhĂ estaba Ă©l en mi sueño, habĂa venido a verme, me besaba, abrazaba, me decĂa que me extrañaba y que no me iba a dejar ir más. Me levantĂ© con lágrimas, pero de felicidad, ese dĂa por fin comĂ un poco, algo en mi interior me decĂa que Jairus vendrĂa, que lucharĂa por mĂ… de repente tocaron la puerta con insistencia y me sacaron de mi ensimismamiento.
–¿Antoine estas por ah� ¡Antoine ayuda!... ¡responde por favor!... ¡Antoine!
CorrĂ a abrir la puerta, una vecina muy querida me estaba pidiendo unas raĂces de onoto para un remedio las necesitaba su madre enferma, asĂ que corrĂ a buscarle un poco en mi patio y se las di...
Ese dĂa en la noche empecĂ© a toser, no sĂ© quĂ© sucediĂł, pero de repente me sentĂa muy dĂ©bil y cansada, no pude dormir casi nada por los escalofrĂos y la fiebre, me hice un tĂ© que acostumbraba hacer cuando tenĂa este tipo de malestares y asĂ me mantuve por 2 dĂas, pero cada dĂa me sentĂa peor, hasta que empecĂ© a vomitar sangre una noche despuĂ©s de tener dificultad para respirar de tanto toser.
Ese dĂa en la mañana no me podĂa mover de mi mueble a hacer absolutamente nada, necesitaba avisarle a mi hermano como me sentĂa, pero no pude y alguien pasĂł frente a mi casa dándome una noticia que jamás pensĂ© escuchar...
Mi vecina a la que le habĂa dado las raĂces de onoto unos 3 dĂas antes habĂa muerto de la Peste, me asustĂ© y mi dificultad para respirar empeorĂł, pero alcancĂ© a decirle a mi vecino que por favor le avisaran a mi hermano en la ciudad que yo estaba muy enferma y que mi vecina habĂa muerto. Mi vecino todo asustado corriĂł y ya no supe más de Ă©l, caminĂ© como pude a mi habitaciĂłn y me desmayĂ© sobre mi cama…
Y entonces Jairus llegĂł por mĂ, hermoso como siempre, tan varonil, tan perfecto, pero se veĂa un poco dĂ©bil como cuando lo cuidĂ© en su enfermedad, llegĂł desesperado, me preocupĂ©, pero no pude decir nada, se acercĂł y me besĂł cuando me encontrĂł en mi cama...
–Antoine despierta, despierta hermana ¡por favor despierta!
EscuchĂ© un susurro y Jairus desapareciĂł, era la voz de Nostradamus que me llamaba y me pedĂa que bebiera algo… Intentaba incorporarme, pero no pude, no tenĂa fuerzas, no sabĂa si todo era un sueño o era la realidad.
–Bebe esto hermana ¡por favor! ¡por favor! Escuché en el susurro.
Como pude abrĂ los labios y algo cayĂł en mi boca, al caer eso en mi boca lo vi, era Jairus ¡precioso! aĂşn más hermoso que de costumbre, revitalizado, con mucho mejor color, con sus bellos ojos rojos, pero no era Ă©l quien me sostenĂa, Ă©l estaba lejos, cerca de la puerta, y en ese momento escuchĂ© nuevamente la voz de Nostradamus que era quien me sostenĂa...
–¡Antoine vuelve hermana! El sonido se hizo cada vez más claro y Jairus cada vez se veĂa más lejos, se fue desvaneciendo en la distancia como si fuera uno de esos fantasmas que siempre veĂa, y entonces abrĂ los ojos y ahĂ estaba Nostradamus al lado de mi cama llorando sin cesar.
–¿Hermano?
–¡Hermana estás bien! ¡gracias, gracias por regresar conmigo! Y me abrazó con fuerza.
Pero al abrazarme y observar detrás de Ă©l, vi algo que jamás pensĂ© que verĂa, estaba el cuerpo de Jairus en el suelo.
–¿Jairus? Grité y Nostradamus me abrazó con más fuerza.
–¡Tranquila hermana! ¡tranquila!
–¡Michel! ¡pero es Jairus ayúdalo! está tirado en el suelo dije gritando con voz temblorosa, y entonces lo que nunca pensé escuchar en mi vida, lo escuché...
–¡Jairus acaba de morir hermana!.
CaĂ en shock, encontrĂ© fuerzas de algĂşn lado, me apartĂ© de Ă©l y me acerquĂ© al cuerpo de Jairus para comprobarlo, lo abracĂ© en el suelo, de verdad se habĂa ido ¡el amor de mi vida habĂa muerto!
Michel me contĂł todo, Jairus se sacrificĂł por mĂ, práctico una especie de suicidio que solo los vampiros practicarĂan, preparĂł una pociĂłn con toda su propia sangre para salvarme a mĂ, Jairus tuvo una confusiĂłn, trabajando su nigromancia pensĂł que habĂa sido el culpable de la apariciĂłn de la Peste Negra que arrasĂł con el pueblo, no se perdonaba por eso, por eso me alejĂł de Ă©l, porque se sentĂa culpable, necesitaba ayudarlos, y al enterarse de que yo estaba enferma no pudo soportarlo y prefiriĂł morir por mà ¡El amor de mi vida se habĂa ido para siempre!
Summary of Visions that you can read here:
My brother had asked me to accompany him urgently, I didn't want to ask anything because of the state he was in, having lost his wife and children to the Black Death, he was very ill, but when I realized he was taking me to that dark castle that I had seen countless times in my dreams, the castle where that man who fed on blood was, I was terrified!...
-What! Nostradamus are you taking me to your friend? the same one who feeds on human blood? the same one of my terrifying dreams?
-Yes Antoine, I need you to do me a favor is that Jairus is very sick, but don't worry I have been watching him for 2 days it is not the Plague, he is just very exhausted and needs to be fed, but I can't be here, I have to go to town to try to help the people. I need you to stay and administer what I will tell you until he wakes up.
-What? You're going to leave me alone with him?
-Antoine, don't worry, Jairus is not what he seems, he won't hurt you, besides he's too weak to do anything and he'll be well fed. I would never put you at risk my sister, but he is a great friend, he has helped me in the times I needed it the most and even that help has reached you, although you don't know it because I didn't want to tell you.
-All right brother, I trust you blindly, you tell me what I have to do and I will do it for you, I don't want to give you more work than the one you already have. I said with deep regret.
-Thank you Sister, he gave me the directions, several bags of blood like others he was already administering, he left me and went away.
As I entered the master bedroom he was there, under the santon sheets and the silver bed with velvet, I had never seen such a beautiful being in my life, he looked as if he came from another world, well, he looked no, he was, his beauty was like nothing I had ever seen before.
I felt like I had visited that castle before, I knew where most of the things were because I had seen it hundreds of times in my dreams, so I did what my brother left me told, I sat Jairus who was too weak to open his eyes and gave him to drink blood every 6 hours, I don't know how, but when he felt the smell he opened his mouth and swallowed.
Every night I would go to bed in the next room and lock the door, I was very afraid, although I knew it was very absurd because he surely had the key to the lock, but internally it gave me a little peace of mind.
I was always very afraid every 6 hours when I had to go into that room to feed Jairus, but I don't know at what moment everything began to change and my fear began to dissipate, at night I had pleasant dreams with him, I could not remember them later, but I woke up in a good mood and very rested, my nightmares with ghostly figures and monsters had disappeared, I could finally sleep well in my 25 years of life.
And now I was no longer afraid, on the contrary, I was very happy every time I had to enter that room, he still did not wake up completely, but his color looked a little better and he was absorbing the blood with more strength, I was beginning to feel the need for him to wake up, I wanted to know him, I wanted to know about him, about that being I had taken care of a week ago.
After a week I had my routine done, I went into the room and suddenly I saw him, he was sitting! I could not believe it, he had finally got up, I ran to see him and touch him, I already felt him as part of me and I had cared for him too much and wished every night that he would wake up to talk to him, but when I ran and stood in front of him I got a terrifying look.
Seeing him that way I was scared and I answered him at once bowing....
-Sir, I am Antoine, at your service!
-What are you doing here? Who brought you here? He said to me, seeming between nervous and annoyed.
-Doctor Michel Nostredame asked me to take care of him until he woke up. I explained that at first Michael thought he might have been affected by the black plague, but he ruled it out and that's why he asked me to take care of him.
-Michael, how is he? Before I passed out I remember him telling me that he had lost his family and was feeling very bad. He said something that sounded like pain?
-He has been accepting it little by little, it is a very hard blow, his life had been focused on his family and his studies since he got married, but there is nothing to do now... they were my nephews so... as he said that he interrupted me.
Wait! Were they your nephews? Are you his sister-in-law? He said impressed.
-No, I am Michel's sister, but from different mothers. I explained to him that I had been raised in the countryside and so had been kept safe from the Plague and that he had asked me to look after him as a personal favor. As I said the latter, he looked down, seemed to feel very bad, but not physically but emotionally perhaps? and lay down on the bed again.
-I have the other portion of blood to be placed in this earthenware jar today, please let me know when you want me to give it to him. As he said this, he replied with a start.
-Blood? Why are you offering me that blood? He said startled.
-Don't worry Mr. Jairus, I know you are a vampire.
-What did you say? He got up ipso facto.
So I told him everything, that I knew who he was, that I knew he had helped us in the village many times, that he paid for Michel's studies and that he fed on people, but that he tried not to do any major harm to anyone. I told him everything except the truth, that I dreamed about him all the time, that I had been dying to meet him and talk to him for a very long time.
But he just went to bed and didn't talk anymore, I felt devastated, something inside me broke so I just went to my room and closed the door, I don't know why I felt so bad, what did I expect? This is a person who doesn't know me and I was in his house without his permission, it was how I should respond, I knew it, but still I felt too sad, but why? I didn't even know him.
I still went in the afternoon to offer him his food again, he didn't treat me bad anymore, but I felt he didn't want to look me in the eyes, unlike him I wanted to see those beautiful red eyes, I felt so much like touching him, but obviously I wasn't going to approach him, I tried to fix his bed when he finally got up from it and stopped me with his hand on my wrist, I felt like a rush from that place to my whole body, those cold hands felt so good.
-Antoine no need, don't worry I'll do it, you're not here for that, you're no servant.
-Don't worry Mr. Jairus I just want to help you, you're still weak.
-No, really, I don't want you to do that, you're my best friend's sister, I'm very grateful for everything you've done for me, I can't let you act as a servant, I don't need it.
When he said that to me I melted completely, he said it looking into my eyes and they no longer looked terrifying, now they looked sweet, pious, beautiful as I had seen them in my dreams. This was the Jairus I saw in my last dreams, the one who made me feel protected from myself and my nightmares.
The following days he didn't let me serve him his food anymore, on the contrary, he hired a person to make food for me when I didn't need it, I wanted to keep doing it.
One day while I was eating he came over and sat at the table with me, he looked at me while I was eating, and I couldn't even swallow anymore I just wanted to see that seductive look, he started to laugh and told me to keep eating that he just wanted to join me, but I told him that I wasn't hungry anymore.
And that's how he started to do it the following days, he would sit and watch me eat, just that, for a moment I thought he had decided to feed me and then eat me, but I pushed that thought out of my head for a more pleasurable one, those lips and those eyes. And then she began to speak...
-Antoine, you are too beautiful a woman.
When I said that, I almost choked...
-Great...Great...Thank you...
-I'd like to sit down and try to get to know you, but I'm afraid for you.
When I heard that I became mute.
-Don't worry, I won't hurt you, I could never do that, but I could do other things that won't be very safe for you....
She was still mute and now blushing.
-I must be frank, I am not a child I am 300 years old, and you are too innocent to understand many things and I don't want to put you at risk of any kind.
-Why risk, then, but it will hurt me?
-The risk of spending a lifetime with me. As he said that he looked down and I felt his great regret, he really said it with a lot of pain. But no more pain than I felt.
-I know you are still confused, I know you don't know what you feel, but I do know human nature well, I have seen it for a long time because I have studied it and I know me too well, and I don't want this to go any further, I need you to go back to your house in the country.
When she said all that to me I understood, but I still wanted to be sure and I armed myself with all the strength in the world and asked her.
-Do you feel the same way? I said looking him in the eyes.
-Yes Antoine, I feel exactly the same, but this can't be, it's not good for you.
As I said that my tears started to spill down my cheeks and kept falling....
-Don't cry please Antoine, trust me this is for the best.
At that moment Nostradamus burst into the room and I wiped away my tears as fast as I could.
-Brother Jairus, are you all right? Nostradamus said.
-Yes brother Michel, thanks to Antoine and to you," he said lowering his face, "I was telling Antoine that he should go back to his house in the country, where he will be safe from the plague because I also need to get to work with you to try to stop all of this.
-Yes that's right Antoine you must go back to a safe place, you have done an excellent job, but I must protect you, besides Jairus and I must work, please go get your things.
I said nothing, I ran out crying to get my things, and while I was getting my things Jairus came into my room, I couldn't stop crying, I was upset, but I was too polite to say anything to him, I didn't raise my face and then he came to me.
-Antoine, can I have permission to hug you?
I stopped, my tears were still running, but I couldn't help but turn to look at him and then he came over and hugged me.
I don't know how many minutes those were, but I had never felt safer in my 25 years of life, I hated that he thought that next to him I would not be safe, when all my life had been too much insecurity with monsters and ghosts accompanying me all my life, I could only sleep peacefully being near him, what could be wrong with spending my life with someone like him? I didn't understand, but I wasn't going to ask either, I had no right, I was nobody and he was almost a God.
I was still crying on his chest as I hugged him and then he pulled my chin up and without knowing at what point he gave me a light kiss and said again as he hugged me:
-It's the best for you, but I will always be watching over you and protecting you.....
Then he took my suitcase and took me downstairs where Nostradamus was waiting to take me back to the camp....
I didn't say anything on the way, I felt that Nostradamus knew everything, he had probably seen it in his visions, so he didn't even ask or say anything, everything was absolute silence until I arrived at the house and all I did was cry for days, why didn't I tell him anything? Why did I keep quiet? That education I had been given was horrible, we should have respect and not talk when we shouldn't, but what about our feelings? Why couldn't we express ourselves?
Why did I feel so little to fight for him? Why did I have to be born in a field? No formal education, why did my father deny me and not give me a last name, why was I born with this curse, what kind of monster was I? Hundreds of recurring negative thoughts crossed my mind every second of those days, I couldn't sleep and one day after so much exhaustion I fell into a deep sleep.
And there he was in my dream, he had come to see me, he kissed me, hugged me and told me that he missed me and that he wasn't going to let me go anymore. I woke up with tears, but of happiness that day I finally ate, something inside me told me that Jairus would come, that he would fight for me, suddenly there was an insistent knock on the door that brought me out of my reverie.
-Antoine, are you there? Antoine help... answer please!... Antoine!
I ran to open the door, a very dear neighbor was asking me for some onoto roots for a remedy, her sick mother needed them, so I ran to look for some in my yard and I gave them to her...
That day at night I started coughing, I do not know what happened, but suddenly I felt very weak and tired, I could not sleep almost nothing because of the chills and fever, I made myself a tea that I used to make when I had this kind of discomfort and I stayed that way for 2 days, but every day I felt worse until I started vomiting blood one night after having difficulty breathing suddenly.
That day in the morning I could not move from my furniture to do absolutely nothing, I needed to tell my brother how I felt, but I could not and someone passed in front of my house giving me news that I never thought I would hear.
My neighbor to whom I had given the onoto roots 3 days before had died of the Black Death, I got scared and my difficulty to breathe got worse, I told my neighbor to please tell my brother in the city that I was very sick and that my neighbor had died. My frightened neighbor ran and I didn't hear from him anymore, I walked as best I could to my room and collapsed on my bed.
And then Jairus came for me, beautiful as always, so manly, so perfect, but he looked a little weak as when I took care of him in his illness, he came in desperate, I was worried, but I couldn't say anything, he came closer and kissed me when he found me on my bed....
-Antoine wake up, wake up sister, please wake up!
I heard as a whisper in my dream the voice of Nostradamus calling me and asking me to drink something...
I tried to sit up, but I couldn't, I had no strength, I don't know if it was all a dream or reality.
-Drink this, sister, please! please!
As I could I opened my lips and something fell in my mouth, when it fell in my mouth I saw him, it was beautiful Jairus, even more beautiful than usual, revitalized, with much better color, with his beautiful red eyes, far away and at that moment I heard again Nostradamus in the distance...
-Antoine comes back, sister. The sound became clearer and clearer and Jairus looked farther and farther away, he was fading in the distance as if he was one of those ghosts I always saw, and then I opened my eyes and there was Nostradamus beside my bed crying unceasingly.
-Brother?
-Sister, are you all right, thank you for coming back to me. And he hugged me tightly.
But as he hugged me and saw behind him was the body of Jairus on the floor.
-Jairus? I shouted and Nostradamus hugged me tighter.
-Calm down sister, calm down.
-Michel, but it's Jairus help him, he's lying on the ground I said with a trembling voice, and then what I never thought to hear in my life, I heard....
-Jairus just died sister, I fell in shock, I turned away from him and approached Jairus' body to check and he was really gone....
Michel told me everything, Jairus sacrificed himself for me, he practiced a kind of suicide that only vampires would practice, he prepared a potion with all his own blood to save me, Jairus thought he was to blame for the appearance of the black plague that devastated the town, he did not forgive himself for that, that is why he took me away from him because he felt guilty and when he found out that I was sick he could not stand it and preferred to die for me. The love of my life was gone forever!…