About ten years ago I changed my mind completely. I decided to give up on my athiest mindset and believe in the magical. Instead of focusing on the aproval from others that I had so eagerly been chasing, I started to do the things that I felt I was meant to ... live in harmony with Earth.
I decided to enjoy the simple pleasures of life, like drinking coffee in the sun or meeting up with friends in a park instead of going out at night. In other words, I started to infuse my life with enchantment and still choose that every day.
Back then I was living in an place that I had specifically chosen because it was so cheap. I slept on a mat in the living room because that one-bedroom apartment was shared with a couple who took the bedroom. Even though that dusty spot was hard to sleep in and the industrial noises of a factory down the street kept me up at night, I can see that I was walking down the path I am now on. All I was missing was the connection with nature.
I gave up almost everything I owned and left the country to "find myself" while backpacking & voluntering in Mexico. Living out of my backpack and sleeping in a tent was challenging. It was also exactly what I wanted: a simple existence.
I met a man who was living in a similar way and had been for years & years. We combined forces and began journeying together, making compost piles & gardens everywhere we went.
And on my own I began learning about herbalism, herblore, and green witchery ~ the art of using herbs for mystical ends. I found myself caring for the planet more than my career. I found that most of what I was taught in school was of little help in the realm of nature. I felt lost and without a clear path ahead. So I gave up on planning and just walked the green path.
And now I find myself here:
Collecting herbs each morning for magic & medicine. Reading by the light of my salt lamp on stormy nights. Doing spells by candle light. I fill my notebooks with HerbLore that I learn from the plants themselves and I share it with all those who read my blog. I live a very simple life. And I am very happy.
There is so much that I must accomplish still. So much that spells and magical thinking can't simply make appear. That is the work of my own to hands, my mind, my determination. I know I am on the green path and that is good enough.