I've vaguely thought that "I cannot change people (or organizations)" for quite a long time, and over the past year or so I've come to believe that with conviction.
That's not to say that I can't influence anyone, but my time and energy are limited. I'm not sure it makes sense to use those scarce resources for everything. Definitely not and it's impossible. Moreover I don't like people force me to do something in the first place.
My daughter doesn't listen to me much when I her she should go to bed early and wear warmer clothes to cure from cold quickly, or my partner is coughing too with an overstuffed schedule. But seeing it freedom point of view, they are living their lives freely. It just makes me stressed that it messes up my schedule. I love them, they are good family and I am grateful that they are family with me. But I realize it is not only about happiness but also difficult to live with others.
Another thing was that my daughter didn't like a pullover last year I bought. I thought would look good on her, but she told me that she didn't really like it. I felt too nostalgic when I saw the organic brand she used to wear a lot when she was little had recently expanded their size range, and I bought one for her.
But when I think about it, I also don't like it when someone buys me clothes and forces me to wear them even though I don't really like them. My daughter is still small, but she is an individual with her own preferences. Of course, if she wants something like glittery plasticky clothes for only one time use, I'll probably say that's not nice and I don't want to pay for it, but other than that, I've come to the point where I'll let her do what she likes. I must respect her life and her freedom as much as I wish others do for mine.
I heard somewhere that you can't have fun and worry at the same time. I have come to the conclusion that life is short and that it would be better to basically do what I enjoy while sharing sometimes with others, including my family.
On a day when there were no buses and trams due to strike, I missed the train I was planning to take because my partner asked me to carry a big cardboard box. I thought we can do it later. But once I started riding my bicycle after a while, I felt so good that my foggy mind blew away.
Yesterday was market day and for the first time I was asked for bitcoin payment. I couldn't handle well and ended up with cash, but I was so happy about it.
I care other people and happy to share time with them, but I must care myself and enjoy my life too. NAP NAP NAP (Non Aggression Polilcy) ๐ช
It was my Sunday reflections ๐
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ใไบบ๏ผใ็ต็น๏ผใฏๅคใใใใชใใใจใใใฎใฏ็ตๆงๆใใๆผ ็ถใจใใๆใฃใฆใใใใจใงใใใฎไธๅนดใใใใง็ขบไฟกใๆใฃใฆใใๆใใใใซใชใใพใใใ
่ชฐใใซๅฝฑ้ฟใไธใใใใชใใจ่จใใใใงใฏใใใพใใใใ็งใฎใจใใซใฎใผๆๅญ้ใๆ้ใ ใใๅคใใใชใใใจใใใใใใใใใ็งใไฝใใๅผท่ฆใใใใฎใฏๅคงๅซใใ ใใปใปใป
้ขจ้ชใซใใใใๆฉใใซๅฏใใปใใใใใๆใใๆดๆใ็ใๆนใใใใจ่จใฃใฆใใปใจใใฉ่ใใชใๅญไพใไบๅฎ่ฉฐใใใฟใใใใใผใใใผใใงใใใใฏๅฝผใใ่ช็ฑใซๅฝผใใฎไบบ็ใ็ใใฆใใใ ใใชใใงใใใใ ใใใใง็งใฎไบๅฎใใใกใใใกใใซใชใใฎใฏใจใฆใในใใฌในใใใพใใพใใใใๅฎถๆใ ใใ็งใจๅฎถๆใงใใฆใใใใใจใฏใใใใใใใใฉใไบบใจ็ใใใฃใฆใใใใจใใใไธๆนใงใ้ฃใใใชใใจๆใใพใใ
ใใไธใคใๆฒใใใใจใจใใใใใชใใจใใใใๅปๅนด็งใๅญไพใซไผผๅใใใชใจๆใฃใฆ่ฒทใฃใฆใใๆดๆใๅญไพใซใใใพใๅฅฝใใใใชใใใจ่จใใใฆใๅฝๅใคใฉใใจใใฆ่ฝใก่พผใใใจใใใใพใใใ่ใใฆใฟใใจ็งใฎใจใดใชใใงใใใญใๅฐใใ้ ใซใใ็ใฆใใใชใผใฌใใใฏใฎใใฉใณใใๆ่ฟใตใคใบๅฑ้ใๅบใใใใใงใๅฝผๅฅณใซไผผๅใใใใใฎใใใฃใฆ่ฒทใฃใฆใใใฎใงใใใ
ใงใใใใใใ่ใใฆใฟใใจใ็งใ่ชฐใใ่ฒทใฃใฆใใฆใใใๆใใใใใพใๅฅฝใฟใงใชใใฎใซ็ก็ใใ็ใใใใใใๅซใงใใๅญไพใๅฐใใใใใฉใๅฅฝใฟใฎใใไธไบบใฎไบบ้ใงใใใใกใใๅๅญฆ็น็ถญใฐใใฐใใฎใใใ่ฒใฎๆใใปใใใจ่จใฃใฆไธๅบฆใใ็ใชใใฃใใใใใใใใฏใใใชใใใ้ใๅบใใใใชใใจ่จใใจๆใใพใใใใใไปฅๅคใงใใใฐๅฝผๅฅณใฎๅฅฝใฟใซไปปใใใใจๆใใใใซใชใใพใใใ
ใๆฅฝใใใใจใจๅซใชใใจใๅฟ้ ใฏๅๆใซ่ใใใใชใใใจไปฅๅใฉใใใง่ใใพใใใ็ญใไบบ็ใ ใใๅฎถๆใๅซใไปใฎไบบใจใฏไธ็ทใซๆฅฝใใใๆ้ใๆฅฝใใฟใคใคใๅบๆฌ็ใซใฏ่ชๅใๆฅฝใใใจๆใใใจใใใใฎใใใใใ ใใใชใจใใ็ต่ซใซ้ใใพใใใ
ใในใจ่ทฏ้ข้ป่ปใในใใฎๆฅใซใๅฎถๆใฎ่ซธใ ใงไนใใใจๆใฃใฆใใ้ป่ปใ้ใใไน ใใถใใซ่ช่ปข่ปใซไนใฃใฆใงใใใพใใใใใ่ช่ปข่ปใง่ตฐใๅบใใใๆฐๆใกใใใใใใใใๅนใฃ้ฃใณใพใใใ
ๆจๆฅใฏใใผใฑใใใฎๆฅใงใๅใใฆใใใใณใคใณใงๆฏๆใใใ่ใใใฆใๅฟใฎไธญใงใฏๅคงๅใณใงใใใใใ ใใชใณใใงใผใณใงใจใฎใใจใงใใฉใคใใใณใฐใฎๆนใๅฎใใจใใใฎใจใใฉใคใใใณใฐใไฝใชใฎใใใใพใใฑใฑใฃใจ่ชฌๆใงใใใ็พ้ใงใ้กใๅใๅใใพใใใ
ใใใชใใใชใงใไปใฎไบบใฎใใจใฏๆฐใซใใใใใ่ชๅใฎๅฅฝใใชใใจใใใฆใใฆๆฅฝใใใใจใซๅฏใใฆๆฅใ ใ้ใใใใจๆใใฎใงใใใNAP NAP NAP (Non Aggression Polilcy)ใ