My Rage In Living Color
It's not often I'm transposed.
For I hide it deep within my bosom.
in the cold, dark recess
I call my "soul".
To the bottomless depths,
I sometimes retreat.
Reserved I've become. No. Demure.
So demure that no one can decipher my rage.
In living color it dwells within my written words.
To bring brightness where none dare shines,
in order to temper the beast within.
But sometimes; Sometimes.
I can't control.
The rage rises.
I'm no longer able to temper the beast.
Should I own it?
Or...Should I deny, deny its existence?
For in denial, this rage, my true self can't emerge.
In the beginning, it was difficult.
So difficult in fact that tears were required
to replace the anger.
To allow my inner being to be exposed.
Others will shy away,
not understanding or realizing,
It is I.
Oh, humorless one can't you see.
It is I.
No harm will come to you.
It's just that I was created with a different blend
than you.
My tones can't be defined in the hex box of hues.
But after twenty-five years, I've learned to control
my thoughts and actions.
I'm not a monster.
I never was.
Just a different shade of consciousness.
Trying to live out my existence
while controlling my,
Rage in Living Color.
The inspiration for my current mixed media art project came from a stable diffusion image I retried from StarryAI. I could feel in my spirit it was time to delve deep within my dramatic. I envision beauty with drama so that I could infuse it with dark.
Below are my steps for the design of the butterfly.
Text input:
"Large ethereal and beauty butterfly full bodied facing sideways and front in blue."
Style: Fantasy
Result:
Of course, my designs wouldn't blossom without my pure fractals that I create in the advanced fractal rendering program, Apophysis 7X. The fractal I chose was a flower design that resembled a web. The other images I included in my design lent credence to the theme of conflict between outer world and inner.
Pure Fractal titled "Leaf Bundle in Pink and Green" ~ Pure Fractal titled "Universal Swirl" ~ Scary female ~ Sci-fi ball - Contributed to the #LIL by @pinkgirl4 ~ Pink rose ~ Angel white wings.
To blend the various images, I uploaded all to Canva, my design program. With Canva, I have access to tools that allow me to begin with a blank, canvas, then layer my images in order to duplicate, colorize, filter, draw elements, resize, and reposition.
I shared above a poem unveiled itself as I looked at the blossoming butterfly that revealed a deeper meaning than the surface. Instead of the colorful flutter of wings, a more sinister being emerged. Thus, I added a truly hideous image to give a face to pain and show what was behind the serene beauty.
I share with you my completed project.
Thanks for taking the time to view my post. I hope you like my mixed media art project for FreeCompliments Art Week.
Good luck everyone with whatever your endeavors.
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SOURCES:
a) JustClickindiva's Footer created in Canva utilizing its free background and images used with permission from discord admins.
b) Unless otherwise noted, all photos taken by me with my (i) Samsung Galaxy 10" Tablet, (ii) Samsung Phone, & (iii) FUJI FinePix S3380 - 14 Mega Pixels Digital Camera
c) Purple Butterfly part of purchased set of Spiritual Clip Art for my Personal Use
d) All Community logos, banners, page dividers used with permission of Discord Channel admins.
e) Ladies of Hive banner used with permission of and in accordance with the admin's guidelines
f) Thumbnail Image created by me in Canva.
g) "Flames." What is Apophysis 2.09. https://flam3.com/
1 What is Stable Diffusion? StarryAI.Com. Online at: https://starryai.com/stable-diffusion