Where My Life Stands Right Now
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The Speed of Life and My Inner Questions
Where is my life at right now?
Life has been moving so fast that I am not able to comprehend what's going on.
Sometimes I wonder if I am actually living my life or am I in a simulation?
I keep asking these questions every now and then.
And then what happens is my brain starts to ache.
It starts to get tired of all the thinking.
Why do we humans have the ability to think?
And if we can think, then why don't we have the ability to comprehend the vastness of the universe?
For example, a few weeks ago, I was traveling on a business trip.
And I stayed in that city for a few days.
And looking back, now, it feels like it was just an hour, not a few days.
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I was there at a hotel, enjoying my day, having different kinds of food, roaming around, and living the best days of my life.
But it all went away in a blip of a second.
Why does it feel like I'm not living, but I'm watching a movie?
That I'm far away from myself, and I'm looking at a tiny person, acting, delivering dialogues, and just existing.
Childhood Questions and Growing Up
When I was a kid, it was difficult for me to understand what life is.
I often questioned myself, what is life and why am I here?
I didn't understand why I should go to school every day, get hit by a teacher, come back home and get scolded by my parents for not doing something that I should have done maybe a week later.
Nothing made sense when I was a kid.
It took me years and years to understand, to know what reality is, to know what life is.
I do understand life now, but deep down somewhere I am still the same child, thinking about my life, God, the universe, and pondering and questioning everything.
I don't ask as many questions as I used to when I was a kid, because, you know, curiosity kills the cat, but in my case, the cat killed my curiosity.
It might sound weird, but there were times I think I had out-of-body experiences.
I mean, I actually didn't have them.
But when I think back, I look at myself as if I am outside my body and I'm looking at my body.
You get the point, right?
Anyways, life has been a little bit difficult lately and it's taking a toll on my mental health and on my physical health as well.
People say that hard work rewards, but honestly, I've been working hard for the last few years and it hasn't been rewarding me with any financial benefits.
It's a different thing that I am happy I'm doing much, much better mentally, but when it comes to financial gain, it's been very, very slow.
Crypto, Struggles, and Lessons
On the other hand, the crypto bull run was supposed to happen last year.
I think that's what people made out it to be and I was hoping that 2024 would be the year of reward for me.
But unfortunately, all my investments that I had are now in huge, huge losses because the market dumped several times.
And instead of giving me some profit, they are in loss.
And the things that I owned had to be sold because I needed money for survival.
I know, I know, life is not fair, life is difficult, everyone is suffering and struggling.
But I thought my struggle would be a little bit tad easier.
But it is not.
The last few days have been really good for Ethereum holders and for Bitcoin holders.
Bitcoin holders on the other hand are pumped up and are hoping that Bitcoin would reach to the stars after touching moon at $120,000.
I think Bitcoin might touch $100,000, $40,000 probably but I think it will not cross that limit because there are a lot of people who are in profit right now and they want to cash out all their earnings.
Recently I heard the news of one of the oldest Bitcoin wallets having billions in Bitcoin, moving their Bitcoin.
I don't know if they sold it, I haven't continued researching on that topic, but I heard that they moved Bitcoin from this wallet to that wallet, and people have been freaking out about that.
Imagine someone investing like $50,000 or maybe $100,000 10 years ago, and now they are making hundreds of millions of dollars out of that one investment.
If I had a time machine, I'd surely go back and buy a lot of Bitcoin.
No, I will not buy a lot of Bitcoin, but I will buy a lot of GPUs and CPUs and miners so that I can mine them perpetually.
One thing that I learned about crypto is it is unpredictable.
You can never predict what will happen next.
There have been moments when I was holding a token and everyone told me that it's worthless and you should sell off.
And I didn't.
Honestly, I didn't.
And it turned out to be one of the biggest fortunes for me in the last five years.
And on the other hand, I have also been holding a token that I firmly believe that it would turn at least 100x.
And honestly, till date, it's just going from minus 10%, 20%, 30% to now minus 99%.
And I'm still holding.
Hopefully, someday it will turn into one of my biggest fortunes for the next five years.
Who knows? You never know.
It is unpredictable as the rains and the monsoon here and there.
It might be nowhere.