Failure doesn't define me and it will not devalue me as a person but years before, I am afraid to become a failure. A failure of doing the wrong thing, a failure of taking exams, and stuffs.
I am afraid of what might people think about me becoming a failure on what I would do. Well, just like years before that someone was asking about taking an exam on that certain examination and I refused it automatically because I am afraid of getting a failure grade in that exam.
Well, that's what I thought it would be that they would judge me of becoming a failure of not getting a passing grade on that exam but now, I think that's not what it is.
We have our own failure and downfall and sometimes, people really expect on the things that you do well and such that you would not get fail. But, that's okay since that's part of growing that if we fail, we will just continue on doing it until we get a passing.
We will not mind those people who laugh out loud with our failures but we just mind on our own to get the passing and strive harder than before.
It's not easy to take these exams because there were lots of questions that we are not familiar of or things that it's our first time trying these things and sometimes we got lucky that we get a success on that things but we expect that there will be failures on doing so.
While, I was just overthinking about failure of myself, I just stay the same as I was before and not growing out of myself. It's like a stone with no growth at all like a stagnant routine that we cannot just escape easily.
But then again, a new goal that came into myself after working in a corporate world for more than a year, many things had just happened and many goals, challenges, and stuffs that I have learned in that small year that I was working.
So, once I was afraid of failing before is now a lesson that I carry. Now, I am not afraid of doing things that will grow and learn along the way.
Well, failure is part of a growing and we need to experience failure so that we will know on which part of me that was missing and learning through that process.
