Doubts are the one that makes me feel unmotivated and or make me thinks that I cannot do it alone or myself. I have doubts for myself.
These doubts for myself grew bigger and bigger just like doing things on my own but before doing it or before getting it, I will think of the what if's situations or scenario. That's when the doubts came in because that doubts from myself were sometimes experience that I did before and fail to do it or watching some videos about people who were not able to do it.
We have doubts, yeah, I think not only me that have doubts for ourselves. Well, there were also doubts to other people and stuffs but this time, we will focus on doubts to ourselves only.
These doubts that created in my mind that maybe I cannot do this and that made a barrier to myself that I really can't do it. Just like one scenario about doubting myself on a work that troubleshooting to one of the computers and then that was my first time doing that troubleshooting, I hesitated at first because I might get fail on fixing it and they may think that I cannot do it but yeah, I really tried on fixing and viola! that doubt had been gone after fixing that problem.
There were a couple of scenarios that was not in a company but also in my life outside work. Yeah, whenever I will finish the tasks or the work, that doubt that create in my head will be gone and stuffs.
If that will be my first time doing that kind of work either work in the company or outside company, I will get some doubts to myself because of my what if's but that doubts will be gone if I will finished it.
There were times, if it is a work, that doubt that created in my head will be my challenge to myself that I will finished it as much as possible without any hassle. But yeah, it's different when doing a work outside my company.
Did my doubts now have grown more?
Well, as I am working in a company, those doubts that came to myself change to something else and instead of a negative thought, I will treat it as a challenge to myself that I will really finished it.
While working in this corporate work, my doubts has been gone down and that made me at ease because those doubts that have been in me in the past year has been getting smaller and smaller as I've experience and explored many things in this corporate job that I have.
