Though I did some serious rewiring already, I am starting to see how stuck I have been in that scarcity mindset.
Limiting myself for decades....
Because planning a future feels like a luxury when survival is the focus.
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๐ฏ๐ ๐๐๐น๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐น๐ถ๐๐ถ๐๐ ๐ผ ๐น๐พ๐น ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ป ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐ ๐ท๐๐๐พ๐๐ป ๐พ๐ ๐ถ๐ท๐๐๐น๐ถ๐๐ธ๐.
๐ฏ๐ ๐ท๐ ๐๐๐ถ๐๐๐ป๐๐ ๐ป๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ผ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐.
๐ฏ๐ ๐๐๐๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ป ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐๐พ๐๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ธ๐ถ๐๐ธ๐พ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐น๐๐๐.
๐ฏ๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐น๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ป ๐
๐๐๐ธ๐๐
๐๐พ๐๐, ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐๐๐๐๐ท๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ผ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ท๐๐ป๐๐๐.
I was asking chat why it felt I was finally playing the game of life at my level, in full color instead of boring black & white.
Chat said this and was wrong, because chat did not know better.
Accumulated wisdom finally paying off
What is wisdom? The things I learned in this lifetime do help, but do they really cause this huge shift in perspective?Shifting from survival to thriving
โSurvival Mode:โ building a career, raising kids, managing responsibilities, no me time basically. But I had me time, and still I looked at life as a black and white image.
That I do no longer have to survive, that has been a while, but the colors only came back recently, after they went away when I started high school.
Release of self-imposed limits
Sometimes it takes decades to recognizeโand dismantleโthe inner scripts, now here we are getting somewhere. Removing my inner limitations.Reframing what โyour levelโ even means
What a joke, I knew what my level was at 13, I just did not know how to reach it. Itยดs the multi-dimensional level, where you see the visible and the unseen. That is my level, and that is why it has color, compared to the one-dimensional level I have been stuck in for years.Midlife clarity and urgency
Urgency, midlife clarity....sounds more like midlife crisis to me. Does the fact that I wasted half of my life already make things any clearer? NO.
But what does?
What caused this flattened experience of living?
I knew my โlevelโ even then, but I didnโt have the tools, confidence, or perhaps the permission to operate there.
I needed to adapt to a simpler way of functioning, because a 13-year-old does not have the experience, the authority, and the finances to level up.
But above all, I did not see all these multiple dimensions. I knew that it was my level, but how would I get there from my single surface reality?
After so many years, I learned to perceive both the visible and the invisible patterns and connections. And by recognizing those, I am able to add more and more layers.
I never knew consciously I was looking for this sight, but unconsciously I knew since I was 13. If I had made my unconscious conscious sooner, I might have arrived here many years ago.
But I did not, I followed my path without a plan.
Now that I see, now that the unconscious is conscious.
Now that I see the level, I see why one needs a plan. But a plan is useless to those who do not see. To them, a plan is nothing more than a list of tasks to complete, for no reason, as completion will not make them see.
And so they will not plan, just like I did not plan...till I did....
When I saw I was playing life at my level and in full color,
Thank you for making it this far....for those who know me...or better, think they know me, this might have been a WTF moment.
About Me
Iโm a self-explorer, writer, and truth-seeker on a journey of turning the unconscious into conscious awareness. For years, I lived under the weight of hidden beliefsโscarcity, unworthiness, fear of failureโthat shaped my life without me realizing it. It wasnโt fate; it was the unseen patterns within me.
Through deep self-reflection, journaling, and emotional exploration, I learned to face my shadows and rewrite my story. I believe healing begins when we dare to confront the parts of ourselves weโve kept in the dark. My journey has been about making peace with these inner landscapes and choosing new beliefs that uplift rather than limit.
Forgiveness, both of myself and others, has been a powerful catalyst in my transformation. It has allowed me to release resentment, dissolve emotional burdens, and create space for growth and inner peace.
I use words to translate emotions into clarity. Writing is how I navigate my inner worldโitโs how I process, release, and transform. Every tear, every insight, every shadow is part of my path toward wholeness.
Here, I share my reflections, my learnings, and my ongoing journey of self-discovery. If youโre someone who feels life has been running on autopilot and youโre ready to take the wheel, youโll find a kindred spirit in me.
Rudyard Kiplingยดs (1865 โ 1936) IF
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
Because I looked,
I looked at my mind from both sides now,
From up and down, and still somehow
It's my mindยดs illusions I recall
I really don't know my mind at all