So I recently quite my job of seventeen years. My friend was getting married in Colorado, and it seemed like the perfect opportunity to do something different. I won't lie. It was the hardest thing I've done in a long time. I haven't taken a road trip in a years, and to be honest I was nervous. I procrastinated like it was going out of style. I knew it was something I had to do, yet I dreaded it.
It didn't feel like a blessing at first. In fact I found myself tormented with doubt. It honestly felt like a burden. The month before the wedding date was the hardest. Everyday I looked at the calendar, knowing what I had to do, yet not wanting to do it at all. Finally I got up one day, and realized that I had to tell my manager that I was quitting.
I walked into work and timidly told him I had to quit. To my surprise, not only was he understanding, but he supported my decision. Up to that point I'd been so distracted by life, that I had forgotten that he was my friend. I was really grateful to him. His understanding, and belief in me, gave me a stronger sense of confidence.
Eventually, the day the day of my departure came and went. I spent the time finishing all the errands I should have done earlier. Yet, eventually I finished everything, and was ready to leave midway through the following day. Though a day behind schedule. I was finally about to start my journey.
It took two days to complete the road trip; yet my journey had just started. I'm so glad I did. I had to break free from the routine that governed my life. I knew that it was God's plan for me to make this trip. Though I spent so many hours arguing with Him about having to make this journey. Yet knowing that it was His will, I decided to be obedient. Despite my feelings, I pushed through. I knew that because He wanted me to make the journey. I had nothing to fear.
It's been a blessing. By stepping out in faith, I broke the chains that were keeping me in place. Though I'm still in the process of walking this new path. I am blessed. I feel a renewed confidence in myself, and in Him. I can honestly say I look forward to this next episode of my life.