The last time I posted here was February and even I posted our last dating with my partner. Since December, I was already sicked so badly that almost took my life. I have no courage to post. I have a lot of stories to tell but I couldn't focus and even hiding all the pain in my heart. My sickness is already a part of my life but the unbearable pain in my heart dragged me down breathless. That's why I stopped writing even during the school vacation.
The living witness how we started our love. He was the principal and I am the Mathematics teacher who started this school.
Last week of December, I was so sicked and my husband saw me dying and he confessed his wrong doing lately. I was not expecting that kind of confession. Maybe, he was afraid that I die that time and there was a hidden agenda 5 months ago to his new jobsite. He is a principal and there was no sign that he betrayed me. We are already 15 years in our partnership as husband and wife. He had legal wife but was separated long time ago before we met. I accepted him with his two children because we had a good relation. It's far beyond my expectation how he replaced me in his heart. I am single when we met. He found a rich woman younger than me and the woman believed what he said that we were separated for already 5 years. It hurted me so badly. After his confession, he promised not to leave me and he just go with the girl because of the sickness of the woman too. He felt pity to that girl who have many exes, her husband and there was already another man with her. My partner fall in love to that girl. Maybe, because she is younger than me and belong to a rich family. It added injury to my 2024 life experienced and first three months of 2025. We fixed and try going to church all the time. He chose me but the girl dont allow him to come home. Even the family of the girl told my partner not to hurt that girl. She has always a gun in his bag. He told me to wait for his return and just understand the situation.
In my side, I accepted the challenge until I decided to let him stay with that girl for his life safety.
He have two kids all boys and he leave it to me. The boys considered me as their mom and love me more than their mother who left long time ago. I decided keeping his two boys and don't leave them. And if God plans to let him back to me, it's God plans for us. What I kept iny heart is to love his children. The frdt son is already a teacher and the other one is still studying in college. He supported allowances and everything but never home since Febrauary.
Our last meeting was during valentines day. I gave him freedom to keep his safety life. I have all the understanding. I am growing older and I entrust everything to God.
Yes, the first time I learned the story, tears were overflowing like a river every night and day. The school I am working now is the witness of our love started 15 years ago. How could I live without him? How to forget but if you entrust to God all your life, nothing is impossible.
To know about our life story before, you can read my post before.
Recovering the Pain
I focused with the kids, my nephew and the two girls , daughter of my nephew. I take care our home and our pet. Just thinking that he is just on his duty and couldn't go home. I am now on the process of healing. I thank God the support of my sister 
From 78 kilos, I reduced to 56kilos now. Its blessing in disguised to keep myself healthy. I fought a good fight battling my sickness and pain. March 16, I was rushed to the city when I lost my breath. It was a heart attacked and was seen in e.c.g. God extended my life for a cause and purpose. I unfriend him who was sending many message to forgive him and sorry everyday. He promised to come home one day. Either its just a way to relax my pain, I don't know. What I know today that I graciously couping us the pain and continue my life according to God's plan.
The Reborn Me
My latest look taken last Wednesday during the Brigada Eskwela before I came home to the city.
All these plants we planted together with our first students here. This is the most memorable place of my life.
There is no forever, nothing will last forever but I trust the process of God and His purposed why I experienced these all. I am 98% moving on. I still love him but accepting the reality is the best option. No pain, no regret, no hate and I forgave him. His children live with me and they love me. They showed their support to me and I considered it as I am still winning the game of life.
That's all for now and I hope I continue to post everyday and I need your support to help me recover those pain.
Thank you for your support 
HIVE ON AND FOLLOW ME!
THE @CRAZYGAL OF NORTH DAVAO, PHILIPPINES