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Honestly I'm not good. I am in mourning now because of my father's death last February 02 this year. I can't believed ot myself that in an instant he's not with us already.
That day before we brought him to the hospital he told me that there's a blood coming from his mouth. I thought it's just miled because he is still so strong. Actually last September we brought him to the hospital because he got a nosebleed. Were so worried what happened to him. He thought that day could be his last day here on earth but he got survived thanks to the people eho helped us that time the he revived before we went to the hospital and it's my sister who brought him there since I have a duty that time.
And this time it's me who brought him here. He really pushed me to go through the hospital. And I said okay. I feel that he is not comfortable with his self anymore. That's why my boyfriend drove as fast as he can do. He's already out of breath. But I let him to breath in and out long. As we arrived in the hospital there's no doctor. My fatger is not in the right condition already. Were glad that theres one utility who saw the situation so he put oxygen on my father. And after 5 minutes I think his not breathing in and out long. And as I saw his face his lips is turning to dark already. So I and my boyfriend shouted to please helped us. Then the doctor came together with the nurses.They assist my father asked so many questions about what happened while I am putting the ice into my father's chest to managed and lessen the blood to come out. And were always talking to my father dont give up yet.
And then the doctor frankly explained me that he needs to be put in an ICU and put this instrument into his mouth down to his lungs so that he can breath. But it's not an issurance that he will live. And I bravely ask the doctor if we do what she told us can my father survived? The answer of the doctor is that, honestly it's useless. Because the lungs of your father is already damage and it can't no longer be fixed. But still were goin through all of this what ever happened. But the situation worsen us. The hospital of our town haven't that aparatu. That supposed to be put on my father's mouth. It's only available in Tacloban. But the sad truth there's no available ICU in our Regional Hospital. And the second choice is the private hospital. The problem is that they will not accept us because we dont have the swab test.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm totally blocked. All I thank is that if it's useless I dont want him to have that aparatu. I dont want to add the hardships he had. We saw that my father is really trying his best to survived but his body wont. His pulse rate is not beating more than 77 which is bad. The higher much better. And then it flatten. So the doctor checked his heartbeat and it's not beating already and the next thing that the doctor said was his death.
I really can't accept it, but I need too. I need to be strong for my sister and our little man. And lastly I and my sister talk to him and asked him for forgiveness for all. And say to him that he should not be worry to us because we can do it. And fullfill his dreams that he wanted for us soon. I know he didn't want to live yet but I always said to him that go. Don't be bother about us. We will be strong just protect and guide us. Both he and my father are now together again. I know they will always protect us.
This is all I can say. I'm already crying while I am writing this. It really hurts. So father wherever you may go, just go and God may shine upon you.Rest in Paradise father say hi to mother and continue your love there in heaven. Just always watched and guide us . Till we meet again my lovely parents. I love you both to the moon and back. Days will passed but You will never be forgotten😘😘😘
That's all for now everyone. Keep safe always. God Bless and Thank you for your unending support to my blog always☺☺😘
truly yours,
