Once again, the feeling of my emptiness even though how I tried to calm down my feelings. My only happiness here is the garden and the cats around from Whitey, and all. Then they were all gone and visited me here in the garbage bin sometimes. Whitey was gone and it was documented here before. Until the day I found love again to the twins Spotty but unluckily, one of the twin was hitted by car and so was bad that I never see the dead body since the cleaner dropped him into the garbage bin. I supposed to give him a burial under the soil same way I did to Moning in the old house. I had been a lot of heartache about cats from Moning and Kikay, the great-grandparents of Whitey.
Yesterday I was alone and I never find any cats even Spotty was no longer living here because of the territory fight between Brown. Browny was the same age with Whitey and he is now the king living here but he loves going outside finding female cats. Everytime he saw Spotty, he fought and want to kill Spotty so this is the reason why Spotty is now living outside under the car. When I open the gate, he gracefully came to me because he knew how safety he is when I am on his side but yesterday, I cried, I didn't see him.
The last time I fed him under the garbage bin. Feeling safe away from Browny, his great opponent fighting for territory fight.
My happiness when I talked and played them. As if I am talking with someone in my side whom I really missed. I really miss you so badly. I hope that one day you will be in my side not just a dream but to take care of you and guide. The cats are only the evidence of how I know how how to love with tenderness. Please help me God🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻! God knows why I am crying.I believe the connections of human and animals!
