Hello hivers of this wonderful community it's been a while since I wrote here in the problems are making me weak that cause me to be inactive. I thought I'll be writing a beautiful story for this mother's day but I will not because this is the saddest.
Yesterday I messaged nanay
because I have some USD in my online wallet. But I don't have a binance app so what I did is to asked some of my trusted friends to cash out my earnings. I'm going to used that to escape from our house. Hubby and I went on a fight yesterday. It all started because of money.. I don't know if it will be a good thing to turn my husband down for my blog today. But what he did really broke my heart.
We all know that it's really hard to raise four kids at the same time. I thank my sister in law because he love my son like his own. But we have still three more to raised. It all started when he ask where did I taking the money he sent to me. He was that before, so I find ways to earn without a help of him. But because I'm not good like the others my earnings are insufficient. I also need to cut my time in half, house chores taking care of my kids. A life of a full time is not easy, but I'm trying to be the best that I can. I also lend money to meet the demand budget. The allowance of my kids, food, load. And what hurt me most was he never valued what Im doing for our family. He just sent me $20 the other day and when he got home he was asking where are the stuff that I bought. I gave him the recipt but his hot hotted and our fight begin. I didn't spend all the money I gave him the $2 left and decided to leave for a while.
I brought many clothes and ride on our boat. He fell asleep my turning four year old daughter didn't cry because I told her I'm just going to get her toys and I'll soon come back. My son cried because I cried too and I told him to look after his siblings. I went to the cash out store to get my little money.
I've waited on the bus station and sit in front of the bus I took some pictures. It's been awhile since the last time I got home on Manila where my mom lived. I was clicking my phone and when I look infront of the mirror the truck was about to hit our bus. Thank God the driver surpassed that moment, because I felt I'll be directly going to the hospital. The old lady beside me saw what happened she told me that the truck driver was reckless one.
I looked at my kids photo so I was crying and I don't care if others saw me. I was here at mom since yesterday. And I decided to go back home today they told me that my daughter is crying and looking for me. I wanted to delete my account in Facebook so nobody will reach for me, but I didn't do it because I want to teach my husband a lesson. It was a long time ago since the last time I came out of his house. We fight but all I do is to cry and pity myself. But I need to settle things out, if Ria we're not little maybe I'll just look for a job and never came back. But I'm still a mom even I'm hurting theres still a called duty for me to do. I know God is watching and he'll guide me always.