What Stops me from being the Axie Infinity Scholar.
Find joy in what you do, and stay wherever and whenever you feel that your choices will make you happy.
Before so, I was awakened with the thought shared by AxieSpike-the first trainer, investor of Axie Infinity, who first believed in my potential to make an impact through my writings. He shared in his post, "Don't take risk you cannot afford to lose." Which made me open my eyes to reality and choose what the best for me is.
When people received their scholarship over weeks or months, I received a lot of offers I'm afraid I'll lose as time passes by.
Axie Infinity Scholarships are expensive. As a student nurse already in the last year of her bachelor's degree, things can get messy, especially with my new schedule- Monday to Saturday, and thinking Sunday could be taken away from me. I cannot risk that investors have bought the Axie they offered, and then I cannot even match the earnings. More specifically, I think I would not even know if I will be able with the tight schedule.to reach my daily quota. And if some would be okay as long as you're enjoying, would it be unfair to others who grind to reach their goal...
As to entering the Axie Infinity world, I came up with many plans. My plan A is to become a scholar. And when it took me time to figure out how the game works, my plan B is to just wait. Waiting leads to more possibilities, learning more and more. Learning the game will make you understand how it works and its sustainability. Plan C is being to be me, and inspire people in a way I can think of, then I stated My plan D and my current plan, I will stay as the axiejournalist. Due to the changes, I know it would decrease an available scholarship, and yes, others would say I'm a hypocrite to not even try the game. But to make things clear, I am still not on board, and I still have time to come up with choices. It's better to stay true that you can't do it than waste time and robbed people's opportunities for selfish reasons.
More than anything else, my drive is to ease and alleviate people's pain; that's why I took nursing. At first, it took it away that it would be my big step if I decided to pursue medicine. Being a journalist, it's my one way to cope with stress and escape reality. It's hard knowing you have to weigh your priorities, but as I shared, I may be running with Latin Honor that would make my parent's sacrifices when I was young be paid off. As a child, I've never been pressured by any force to do better, be on top, to dwell with the intelligent. Still, as a dreamer, I am ambitious at it is. As early as I can think of, I am already responsible for how my decisions can lead me into. I know I had turned down many opportunities that come my way. I have been hard with myself; I pressure myself more than my parents can pressure me because when my parents get old, I can be the oy one they can rely on. As to, I would like to share some opportunities I swapped over my happiness. My mom told me, "Follow your heart. Live with your happiness." My dad told me, "Be in a state you're happy. Don't let others occupy that space when you can make the possible impossible." It started when I am looking for a university to study at here in the Philippines. Since I am ambitious, I told you that I took every scholar offer on the line and the highest-ranking universities in the metro, including UP. UPM Nursing is a standard. The UP itself is the place where the wise gather. But I grew up with the principle that if I study in the heart of Philippines-Manila, I wouldn't be able to graduate. I am ambitious that I took every entrance test of every university I am interested in. I later swapped with my dream university who only needed our "average more than 90" instead of those hard-earned slots in another university. Moreover, I exchanged the privileges of State University to my top-ranking school in the Cordillera Administrative Region. That would be the biggest breakthrough in my life. Battling academically brought so much uncertainty. I cried a lot; I tried to change university almost my freshman and sophomore years, but I stayed as a consistent Dean's List. And now, a senior of the program, even still the school publication's feature editor.
You see, even though there are many pullbacks and what-ifs turned to reality, I am still thinking, did I reach the point that I regret choosing where I am now? Maybe with my younger self, yes. Today, I am more stowed to see myself grow into someone ready to impact. Life is short, and we only live once. We choose what makes us happy, we let go of opportunities even it's the on top of the cake, but we cannot risk where we are now. Axie Infinity made me grow my confidence, especially in writing, which is my first love. Almost 9 years of journalism and already reached that point where I almost lost interest, but I kept coming back. This will be the main reason I would stick with Axie to Infinity, not maybe as a scholar but as a journalist. That would make my pseudonym-axiejournalist.
Dreaming, we have to let go, and we would feel sorry about people who's been with us and believed in us when no one else does. I didn't literally turn down the offers. Again, the axiejournalist aim is to make an impact, not for selfish reasons. Axie Infinity is not just an ordinary game as it is the game of life. You learn to hurdle the "survival of the fittest."You learn to become motivated, unwaveringly. To grind and never lose the fire ignited from within.
For three days now, I am genuinely sorry.To my brothers and sisters who have been with me, I feel sorry for the opportunities you paved the way to reach me. Because in reality, it will pave the way for others to get into the slots too, I mean, it will not make a difference, but I will not waste it when more are working hard to earn it. Your success will be my success as I'm on my journey of finally reaching my goals in life.
Surely, I may come back as a scholar when my schedule does not turn hectic as long as the game still wants me in. But I'll stay with you all, seeing all your tweets, reading all your stories, I will write still, as the axiejournalist that I am today. I am never going to say goodbye, but I'm taking the path with you all. Strive in your chosen path, and I will do with mine too.
To those hundred fourteen people who first believed in me, I want you all to achieve your goals in life. Don't be selfish; if it seems unrealistic for you, don't forget you can say no. No is a word that does not only mean you can't do it, but it's a sign of respect. Especially those who will give you the opportunity because they really did work hard for it too.
Declining offers is not bad as long as you're genuinely sorry about that. I may regret this tomorrow, but I know my patient's life would be worth every take. In Axie, I may not cry. In reality, I may especially hospital duties are dreadful-believe me, they really are. I'm also a witness of babies being born and how they bring so much joy to people around. Once again, I cannot become the hypocrite who will take slots because I needed the money. Because for me, Axie Infinity is more than that.
In one month, I found people who become my family. I found the community that brings out the best in me. I feel guilty, and I am genuinely sorry, but I will not take anything that goes out from my principles. I am okay letting go of opportunities as long as I will not take other's hard-earned spots for granted. We all worked hard to reach our sense of stability.
Someone who will always be there, watching you triumph,
Dani