My thoughts about Papa Buzz hitting me up on discord 😭😭🚀

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I was on my friend's dc channel listening to some music when I received a notif from Papa Buzz 😭👇🏼

I kinda can't contain my emotions so the first thing that I reply is that OMG lmao. And as a dumb anxious person, I thought things like "did my reply was appropriate? Why would I be ready? Where would I be ready for? 😭😭" I just really need assurances lol

But on the other side, I am also like this when Papa Buzz ask me if I am ready:

Papa Buzz: Are you ready?
Me: OMG, YES I AM 😭😭😭
Me inside: OMG PAPA BUZZ KAHIT HINDI AKO GIRL SCOUT, ALWAYS READY TO PARA SAYO LOL 😭😭🤣

And then

Won't deny it, I was really nervous this time that my hands are getting extremely wet and insanely shaking 🤣

And then I received a message from our top player, Matty the great lol

I AM REALLY SORRY FOR BEING SO INFORMAL 😭😭😭 WELP THIS IS ME WHEN IM NERVOUS 😅 I TEND TO BREAK THE FORMALITY BETWEEN THE PERSON THAT I AM TALKING SO THAT I WILL NOT BE AIRHEADED 😭😭

AND THEN THAT "So alam mo na mangyayare?" QUESTION JUST LEAVE ME ON (ʘᴗʘ✿) MODE LMAO. I am really just anxious asf. By that time, I thought that what if he's testing me 😭😭 what if my reply disappoint him 😭😭 but as you can see, I am not really sure about my personality lol HAHAHAH I REPLIED "di ko sure" for I think that it will be the best answer lmao

and this convo is lit af HAHAHAHA

Thank you Papa Buzz for giving me an opportunity to be your scholar 😭😭 rest assured that it will not go to waste!! 🤝💜

And thank you Manager Trainor Guardian Angel Matty the Great for being so nice 😭😭💜 And I'm really sorry if I chose to give you a hassle option for just making clips instead of live streaming 😭😭🤧 I really appreciate your kindness but I just really can't do it... for now? Idk lack of confidence I guess 😬😬 But yeah THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I PROMISE YOU THAT I'LL TRY NOT TO BE A HARDHEADED TRAINEE LOL

And of course, Thanks to God 😭🤝 I will not waste this opportunity.

That will be all, thank you for reading HAHAHAHA.

A self portrait for now because I got some ✨Art block✨ hmu if you have suggestions what should I do/draw next 👀