Today has been one of those days that feels like it's been stretched out over a week. The kids are on holiday, and as much as I love having them home, it feels like the house has turned into a whirlwind of noise and chaos. There’s a constant hum in the background, between the bickering over who gets the TV remote, the never-ending requests for snacks, and the constant need for attention. It’s like the energy of two little humans can fill an entire house, and somehow that energy is constantly pointed in my direction.
I woke up early (too early, of course) to the sound of little feet running around the house, followed by excited shouts of "Mom, Mom, look what I made to "Mom, mom, I want to eat I want to eat!" I had barely closed my eyes after another restless night of tossing and turning, and here we were, launching into another day of school-free madness. The holiday break is supposed to be a time to relax, but it often feels more like a marathon than a vacation.
The stress of it all isn’t just from the noise or the chaos, though. It’s the constant juggling act that comes with having the kids at home. Between keeping them entertained, making sure they don’t destroy the house, and managing all the household tasks, I often feel like I'm just one step away from completely losing it. Of course, they’re kids, and they have endless energy, so they’re excited to be free from the school routine, while I’m just trying to keep up.
And if that wasn’t enough, there’s the ongoing issue that’s been nagging me for what feels like forever, the inability to sleep. I can’t seem to pinpoint exactly why I’m having such a hard time falling asleep. It’s not like I’m stressed out, but something keeps me awake, thoughts racing through my mind, the tension building in my body, and I just can’t seem to quiet it all down long enough to rest.
When you're running on empty, it's hard to keep up with the kids and their boundless energy. I feel like I’ve been on autopilot all day, trying to get through one moment at a time. But then they smile, or show me something they’ve created, and for a split second, it makes all the stress worthwhile. It’s in these little moments that I find my reminder of why I do it all. Still, tonight, I’m hoping for a solid night’s sleep (if that ever happens), so I can wake up feeling refreshed and ready to face another day with more energy than I had today.
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