Always been the case for me, I have been failing for the last few years to become independent of the 9 to 5 and I am kinda just constantly in a loop. I really want to escape it knowing that at my current age I will not have much time to enjoy a lot of the hard climbs that I want to do. My only hope is that this year things can really turn around: I can support my family, afford to live on my own somewhere and be able to climb full time.