I chose to see the good in everything, though I'm not perfect and strong at all but there are times when I get defeated helplessly and what's worse is that it happens most of the time lately.
Things had gotten heavy; I don't know what happened, sometimes I take this as a challenge or a trial from God to measure how much I could give to my family but I just can't unsee how people lan their full weight on you when someone could give. Trust me, i want to givee more, and I hope I would overcome my fear of running out.
I and ny husband decide dine and cook at my mum's place, after we saw her eating alone in her dining table while we were at home, in happy chaos with the kids. My father died 7 years ago leaving my mum alone and no income aside from her crops on the farm and chickens. Now my sister extended her house with a room where she could rent so she would have an income but she said they are too noisy and hassle, she doesn't want anyone else living in her house.
My oldest sister lives ton the same house as her and we also share the same food. We took turns back in the days but now it seemed different, perhaps their budget had gone to buy feeds of the pigs they raise Which they plan on spending at my niece's birthday this coming October and I suppose theya re going to invite many people.
But I know she had money, her online bought items kept coming but she keeps saying she doesn't have some but she could afford to buy data packs for staying online and just having little to none income.
It's not that I am complaining about the money but I just wish they would reconsider things amd be money wise. Last month I jokingly told my sister she had been sacrificing a lot to feee rhe pigs but if tome comes, people who did not sacrifice with her would eat the meat and some would talk behind her back for the bad taste.
To be clear, I'm not complaining nor counting things here but I'm just venting out the things I saw in my point of view, the harsh reality of life where people would do everything wleven loan just to fit on the society's demands.
I got overwhelmed by the things tat happened lately; mayny things ahd been bothering me to lose my peace and I hope I would be able to overcome this heavy burden soon in God's time.
This will be all for now, thank you so much for your time and supprt