Hi everyone, hope you all are well. Today I am going to write something else rather than writing about my travel experiences or about photo locations. For a couple of days I have been thinking about writing this post, words were jumbling in my mind but I didn't have a proper way to express it. I have been dealing with mental problems for a long time and I wrote many articles focusing on my mental health. For the past 2 years, I have been trying to adjust to my current life situation but it seems like the struggle is never-ending. Mental health is a kind of problem that cannot be seen even doctors do struggle to diagnose such issues easily. For example, it's very easy to treat when you have a very specific disease, you can do an X-ray, MRI, etc to understand what's going on with you. But when your brain deals with psychological and psychiatric problems, nobody gonna understand what's happening until you vent and open up yourself.
It's a fight that an individual has to deal with by themselves if they don't seek professional help. I sometimes feel so ashamed and guilty thinking about how my brain makes up things that are not normal. I see people around me living a normal life, doing activities whereas I am not capable of doing such things due to my mental health problems and depression. Why!! It's not like I am different from others. I always ask myself one question: Why me!! People who go through so much in life will understand these words I guess. I understand and listen to everything, I know what is right or wrong but my brain and body don't cooperate with each other.
I couldn't identify my problems until now. I started learning about mental health problems and how depression and trauma work. A traumatic life incident can change the entire life perspective and cause long-term suffering. I am currently dealing with several traumas that built up brick by brick for many years. I have reached the breaking point and tolerance level where my mind and brain could not take anymore and suddenly froze everything inside me. I know many people in this world currently dealing with situations that are more serious than mine. They have strong mentality and courageous mindset and I honestly envy them.
I really hope one day I will be able to break this frozen and invisible wall and will feel break-free and normal.
Regards,
Priyan
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