MI VIAJE DE SANIDAD INTERIOR [ESP-ENG]

Luego de una semana de pausa, vuelvo renovada y con muchas energías a compartir mis experiencias con todos ustedes mis amigos virtuales. Realmente me atrevería a decir que es la primera vez que me ausento de mi blog, por un periodo de 7 días, pero la experiencia lo meritaba y sin duda alguna valió la pena.

Hoy como todos los martes es un día especial porque los que decidimos a aportar nuestras experiencias con la temática de Encuentro de Talentos, dejamos volar la musa interior para plasmar nuestros pensamientos sobre “Life is a journey.” This theme fits perfectly with my recent experience and therefore I will use it as a starting point to break down my participation.

There are few places I know away from home, but without a doubt, one of my favorites is the city of Merida, I let my sight get lost with its beautiful mountains and landscapes and I love its cold weather, even with all the bad feeling I get from the change of atmospheric pressure, I don't miss the opportunity to go when an option presents itself to me.

A couple of days ago I received an invitation to attend a women's meeting called "Living in Freedom", it is my first experience in a similar activity like this and I can assure you that I enjoyed it to the fullest and that we were totally disconnected from the outside world, because they took away the technological means to reach a higher level of concentration and intimacy with your inner self.

It is interesting to evaluate how during our journey we carry an endless number of experiences, both positive and negative, that impact your life and leave deep traces and sequels. Sometimes the passing of the years can make you think that the wounds have healed perfectly, until some present action makes you change your mind and you evaluate the torrential consequences that have been triggered by not confronting those old wounds.

As for the emotional part, when you fail to reach that level of inner healing, this undoubtedly affects your future emotions, you can become a person with low self-esteem and depressive thoughts, it is difficult for them to achieve satisfaction and find happiness in the environment where they develop. In the same way, you experience absolute distrust, you do not establish affective bonds with anyone and it is difficult for them to express themselves in a positive way, it is as if the shadow of the past was continuously echoing in the thoughts of the present and the future, with fear chained to your decisions, therefore you establish dependence on your emotions.

It has been scientifically proven that people end up visualizing in their partners the image of the father or mother they did not have in their childhood or adolescence and in many other cases that we live in our daily lives and that can be something inexplicable for many, but that only makes sense for those who live it.

My emotional situation is not linked to any of the above examples, I only took it as a reference, but I have been carrying a deep maternal void for more than a year, my mother thank God is alive, but has time in the neighboring country Colombia, I confess that at first I let that void fill my life with resentment and reproaches against her, because in a way I felt abandoned at my 34 years, it is somewhat selfish of me, but I am opening my heart to write this.

I did not understand that her mother's heart is divided and that this situation was not easy for her either, so I simply used as a defense measure to limit my communication with her and the remedy was worse than the disease, until I understood that I had to decide to give way to the healing process I was living and then enjoy a fluid communication with my mother despite the distance, now my emotions are healthier and I do not repress myself in my loneliness as I often did wrongly.

The distance that separates us does not stop hurting me, but with this encounter that I experienced this week I broke the chains that kept me still subject to that cruel cycle of pain and I am determined to heal and continue moving forward in my personal and professional life. I am aware that this is a slow process that requires a lot of effort, but I count on the support of many special people, who indirectly add joy to my life and make it more and more beautiful with every action, word or gesture they give me.

Finally, my dear reader friends, I do not know what your emotional wounds are, nor what are the causes of those tears that keep you captive of pain, frustration, low self-esteem or any other emotion or feeling, but what I can tell you is That the decision to let go of everything that is hurting you is in your hands, let those emotional voids heal and live with intentionality, remember that there is only one life and we must take advantage of our journey through it, because lost time is never recovered.

I thank you in advance for dedicating part of your valuable time to read my work and may God multiply the support you give to my publication. Blessings.

All photos used here are my property and were taken with the camera of my Redmi Note 9T phone. The design was made with the GridArt application.