For months I've felt like I'm trapped in a nightmare. I truly can't believe this country is real, and I don't mean that in a good way, quite the opposite. We've been through some incredibly difficult months. I thought it was just my experience, but most of us are going through this period in a very difficult way. It's dystopian to think that the country is falling apart and the best thing the government can come up with is to throw parties, inaugurate swimming pools, and hold concerts. And the worst part is that people attend these events and enjoy themselves, but when they get home, their refrigerators are empty.
I don't understand people, but I do understand why this country will never escape misery. We're all destined to die without knowing freedom or what it's like to have a minimally "normal" life. My hopes dwindle when I see the crowds being manipulated as always; nothing changes, everything gets worse. This week, the long-awaited salary increase in Venezuela will be announced, something that seemed impossible since there hasn't been a raise since 2022, and everything has devalued so much that the minimum wage in Venezuela is nothing more and nothing less than the paltry sum of approximately $0.25. Obviously, NO ONE pays that because probably NO ONE would work for such a pittance, but let's keep in mind that the base salary is used to calculate vacation pay and other employee benefits. It's humiliating…
To be honest, I'm terrified this is going to happen. Maybe they won't raise salaries that much, but I know food will be more expensive because it's always the same, and I'm tired of trying to be optimistic. It's hard to be optimistic when you can't even cover your basic monthly needs, when you can't even think about buying yourself anything because food has to be your priority. Just one can of powdered milk costs between $14 and almost $20, depending on the brand and how drugged up the place is where you buy it. It's unreal that nothing will change and that some people, even though they're struggling, still support this government…
This is the first time I've felt like I'm reaching my limit, and I've had thoughts of leaving, but I haven't even been able to save enough money for that since it's impossible. I've never considered leaving my country because I don't want to suffer somewhere else where I might not be welcome. I've seen too many cases of xenophobia, and I don't think I could endure that... But I've reached my breaking point so far that sometimes I think maybe it wouldn't be so hard to put up with being humiliated somewhere else if I could at least have a more stable financial situation.