There's a lot going on but in some weird way, there's nothing going on. While the world tries hysterically to cope with the pandemic that's ravaging countries like Italy, China, and USA, I've been struggling to cope with sudden wholesale changes.
The phrase "self isolation" is thrown around very often these days, obviously because it is the best way mitigate the spread of this virus but way before the virus, some of us already lived isolated lifestyles.
Spending your whole day at home is novel for the majority and if you scheme through Twitter, Instagram and other Social media channels, you'll notice a bunch of "Stay at home' internet trends that I can only describe as "meh". Perhaps it's the realisation of the fact that my reality is a joke to these guys, yeah, lets go with this.
From a mental point of view, I've not really been coping well with the changes and on the surface, you might assume it shouldn't be difficult since I've always been a stay home guy but that's not the case. I'm dealing with some mental issues that I still struggle to express, however, I think I've gotten to some of the causes.
Caged Docile Beast
I spend a lot of time at home because, well, it's a lot safer than going outside. Other than the chances of a fire hazard or an aircraft falling out of the sky, I'd say it's safer than the outdoor. With that said, the thought of Government instituting I stay at home is really messing with my head.
I'm really struggling with the situation and my countrymen aren't making it any easier for me. Unlike countries where your government can print money to infinity and provide Universal Basic Income for their citizens, nigeria is poor, mismanaged and perpetually in horrible shape.
Yesterday, the President addressed the country for the first time since this pandemic started and in his typically uninspiring, and zombie fashion, he stated that there will be 14-days lock down in Lagos and Abuja(where my girlfriend lives) starting by 11pm today. In theory, we could say this is possible but the reality is that in Nigeria, people can't afford to stay indoors.
I live in Kaduna, and we're roughly 2 hours away from Abuja, and the governor of my state tested positive but he's one of the asymptomatic type. I expect there'll be a full lockdown here and that thought fucks with me. We're already on partial lockdown, so there are few public transport moving, few markets open and limited amount of food in circulation. If we go on this two-week lock down, I'll probably lose my mind or die of starvation.
It has only been a couple of days since life changed in Nigeria but I'm really close to losing my shit. I hope things go back to normal or whatever version of normal we have when this thing ends. I'm losing sleep.
