I have lost a considerable amount of weight during the course of my life as a dialysis patient. At first my weight was around 48 Kilos when I was just starting and if I would get waterlogged at that time I would gain extra water and it will turn my weight around the 54 levels.
But for my height and age at that time about 19 or more years ago I am already underweight. Then my body mass had dwindled over time until I reached my current weight of 36.5 Kilos.
Lately I was having the problem of crashing my BP even though I was taking Caffeine to shoot my blood pressure up to stabilize it while I am hooked-up for my dialysis.
I was already feeling that I am more than adequately drawn out with extra fluids in my system and I can feel it already with my ear drums collapsing, the thing that you feel in your ears when you go up in the mountain because there is less pressure up there.
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But in dialysis when you are overdrawn with water it tends to pull your eardrums inward because the inside of your head shrinks thereby pulling your eardrums inward and your eye getting deep.
That is what I am feeling at dialysis which could mean that my previous lower weight is not my real weight anymore and that I am getting heavier with a real mass.
So why would I get fatter? It could mean that maybe I have a tuberculosis all these years and that I am responding well to my rifampicin/isoniazid medicine, the anti-TB drug and that my skin and bones problem was due to my supposed tuberculosis and I am now getting cured with my TB which is leading to my weight gain.
It is quite a good news if it were so the case for me and that might be a cause for a celebration. Well I do not know, but for now I still needed prayers because I do not want anymore health problems and that I wanted to get cured if not for all but some of my health issues so that I can feel how to live life as near normal as I can get it.
It is just hard to manage my health issues, it is expensive and literally painful to the body. I am hoping for the bitcoin price ti surge even more so that I can make my medical dreams a reality.
I do not have much ambition in this life of mine but to feel normal again. But my ambition is a peculiar thing, it might sound simple but it is way more expensive to make them a reality. It is a crazy goal I admit but I think that it is not a bad thing to correct what is wrong in my body. SO I pray to God to will it for me to make me overcome these mountains of hurdles that I have to pass through in order for me to taste what a normal life should be lived even for a short time only. May God help me.