Do you like the night time? I do.
Sometimes I wished that the night time was longer, it is because it is silent, really peaceful, and I can think more. The only difference is that I could not really enjoy it because of my body as it aches, there are no more comfortable positions that I can do, even my eyes are itchy at the moment.
My mouth is also uncomfortable, it always wants to open-up but I kept on shutting it close and it tires me, my entire face. My neck hurts and I only have one relatively comfortable position in sleeping which is on my left-side.
I only can sleep on my back if I am very sleepy. At this point I am not, maybe tomorrow or late in the afternoon I can put myself in slumber if the sleep fairy visits me again.
Right now the caffeine residue is still affecting my body, I am stimulated with my brain so I guess I will have to wait until my body recovers from what I should call a "desperate measure" about my need and want to complete my dialysis treatment because of my problematic blood pressure.
Image by R_Winkelmann from Pixabay
My blood pressure was the cause of me being a laughing stock of my nurses because for so long a time I am telling them to target my dry weight, target my dry weight but my blood pressure keeps on crashing and we had a lot of discussion and debate about that issue so in turn it made my person to be a thing that is not likeable anymore to them.
It is really hard to explain but another factor was my appearance really. I have experienced already that if you look awful like me then more possibly you will get treated awfully too particularly if you are grumpy.
But I have all the reasons to get grumpy, obviously it shows, only the pain that I am experiencing with my body doesn't, especially if what you are seeing is my image about ten years ago. I really missed this appearance of mine, too bad I can just immortalize it in digital pictures and the blockchain.
Anyway, I hope that I can be able to sleep the soonest time possible. It is the only instance that I can dream and maybe walk in my dream, go places and meet other people because in this real life I do think that I cannot ever do those things, not if another miracle from God happens again in my life.