I am thankful to God that once again I will be going God-willing for my dialysis this morning. I really can't wait to get my blood get cleaned again because I was eating much relatively and because of that toxins would build-up in my blood more.
That is why I do not like to eat much because eating doesn't only nourishes me up but also it poisons me slowly. If I would not get dialyzed as soon as possible then I will die slowly. That is why I kept on going for my dialysis because I am just afraid of the lingering death that I would have to suffer.
If only dying for not being able to get dialyzed is quicker then I might stopped going for dialysis a long time ago. But it is not the case so it is hard and my body really is a tough nut to crack because it keeps on going and going like an energizer battery as seen in the commercials.
My heart also look good in the Ct-scan and the Chest X-ray impressions because it says there that my heart is normal in size, meaning that it is not working hard which is why I am not feeling any symptoms about my heart, no arrhythmia or any heart beat problems nor chest pains whatsoever which maybe means that I am not going to die soon too.
It is both fortunate and unfortunate that I will have to live longer. Fortunate because living this long as a dialysis patient is quite an achievement and some patient sees me as an inspiration for moving forward and having some hope. It is unfortunate also that I will be living for maybe more years to come because obviously I am in misery and no sane person wants to live like this kind of life.
Cryptocurrency makes my life seem so exciting because i wanted to see the light of another day, I wanted to see the prices thereof after a few more years so that I could achieve my goals in life which gets more impossible as months go by and I am still not sure if I can achieve even one of them anymore. So only time will tell and if God graces me with those that I want to happen then surely enough that will really make me as happy as I can ever be. May God help me.