Emotions are like waves in the middle of a scary sea. Uneasy, full of horror, even making most of us would be reluctant to just look at him. A calm disposition, can be likened to the swish of the waves on the shore, which sweeps away all the wounds and bad memories, as well as the shadow of anxiety that descends in our minds.
But there are times when it doesn't have to be that way. From time to time, there may be people who prefer to look at the waves that reveal their ferocious faces. Rather than staring at the calm waves that keep a lot of secrets. Same goes for people who feel crowded, even though he himself was in a boarding room that locked him up. Or people who feel lonely, even though they are in a shopping center, entertainment place, or are hanging out in a coffee shop.
Most of us, are likely to and have experienced something like that. This can happen anytime and anywhere. Can happen when we have a lot of money, in conditions of starvation, even when we are having sex with a partner. What we feel as a confusion, may be a glimmer of hope for others. Likewise with the things that we consider a burden, instead who knows to be an inspiration for others right?
In the midst of pandemic conditions like now, we will easily find the number of blasphemies thrown. Many people feel the most right, and certainly do not want to be blamed. If so, to whom do we suppose we will hold accountable? To the country? To the government? Or to the capital owners who still continue to get convenience? Oh of course not. Nobody wants to put out the fire in the husks friend. No one will want to flush this flaming hatred.
Life will always be like this; full of uncertainty. Because we can only plan, the best effort will direct. For the rest, let's leave it to God, which we call by many names.Yes, courage and freedom. Two things that often don't go hand in hand. Two things can actually complement each other, but with notes must be careful. Nothing is prioritized. Because courage and freedom are two things, one thing, and one thing two. Like two bird wings that help to lift. Airs without fear of falling due to gravity. Without ever being ashamed to cover up other deficiencies.
As I stated earlier, emotions, fatigue, and despair are not disasters or disasters. It is a necessary phase. He is part of the life scenario that must be faced. No need to bother dodging, because he will come on time. And you don't need to be chased, because he will pick you up with all his surprises. The thing we can do is, prepare as well as possible, and don't forget to look for the best choice of all the worst possibilities.
Easy impression right? But will it really be as easy as you say and think? No, absolutely not. The hardest test is, we rarely know when that time will come. Even worse, when the conditions are ongoing, we instead seek an outlet. Impingement to channel all the anger that arises. And channeling all the unrest that seems to have no end, and all kinds of spark of hatred.
Rest and stop for a moment to the point of deepest despair. Is not when we still believe can live, there will always be a reason why we survive? Even with the most trivial reasons; postpone death, no other choice, or follow the mindset of most. To be sure, not a problem right? As long as we don't harm anyone.
Feeling tired is a human thing. Because we are not machines that are assembled together. One thing that needs to be known and we realize together, is it possible we only need to rest? Hibernating like bears facing winter? Or like poultry and penguins that are incubating eggs?
How it will turn out, suppose we are not ready if things are back to normal. Normal according to our habits before the arrival of this tiring outbreak? Have we made sure as carefully as possible, that we can be different from before. No need to be better for others, at least there is a habit that supports us to go up to class? Up grade in terms that can be interpreted respectively.
This is not the reflection of a wise person. Even worse, this is a personal curse to myself. Who has never been able to look for wisdom in a narrowness. Which can only be confused is not clear without a certain direction. One thing I hope after this epidemic is over, I want to remain a human being. Not a wise, wise, or well-known human being. I just want to be an ordinary person, who can more or less prepare myself and adjust to what really should happen.
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