I got a new tattoo! I booked this one a few months in advance and the original drawing looks very different from what I ended up getting. I love both designs. My cousin drew the other one. But my tattoo artist did an incredible job anyways. The design fits my personality perfectly.
It was a lot rougher than expected. All I ate was a donut beforehand, thinking it would be enough. I haven't been eating as much lately, and it feels like a chore most of the time.
When I saw the design it looked incredibly intimidating. She made it seem like it was going to be a small tattoo but it became this huge thing. Which I'm glad. When she made it sound like it was going to be really small. I was hoping for something more medium-sized. But more prominent was good too! I've always hated my upper arms. I've always felt they were ugly and have been self-conscious of them my whole life. So having them covered by art has boosted my self-esteem a lot.
Within 10 minutes of the tattooing, I passed out. It's funny because the pain doesn't bother me as much as blood, gore, etc. Anything body-related gives me the creeps. It was scary passing out this time. Because when I woke up, I had no idea where I was and didn't recognize my tattoo artist. I thought I was in bed asleep. Usually, when I pass out, I oddly have an awareness of what's going on around me. I just can't interact. It's like my body is separated from my brain.
After fainting I looked at the tattoo design with disappointment. I imagined how amazing it would be to have on my arm. And how I would never be able to get through it. All I was going to walk away with, was a tiny flower. I was preparing to have that conversation with my artist. When she gave me some fortune cookies, Another woman I don't even know came over and gave me some gummies. Then another woman who was with her friend gave me some brownies. I was so out of it after passing out. I was in awe by how sweet people are.
If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't have gotten through it. Another artist offered some words of encouragement too! He told me that he's never seen anyone pass out more than once in his 23 years of tattooing. Which made me feel better. At once point I got really close to passing out again, But I didn't. And I was greatful for that. I thought I was going to pass out every 10 minutes the entire 5.5 hours of the appointment. I wouldn't have been able to handle that. It's insane when you think of getting tattoos. Literally sitting there for 5.5 hours in pain. Everytime I get one, I feel like I get so much stronger as a result!
