What I think is me between the devil and the deep blue sea
It has been a while friends, I have been occupied with lots and lots of things on my mind.
My job has been highly demanding lately, ripping off my time for studies.
I found myself missing classes or most times going late for classes and being restricted by lecturers from attending their classes due to my lateness.
The process of meeting my financial needs and trying to meet my academic needs did not really go well.
There is a saying that one cannot truly serve two masters at the same time, because either of the masters will definitely get cheated.
So in this case, my academics got cheated and I ended up having very poor grades.
I was not happy with my grades and I really needed to work harder so that my University will not serve me a compulsory notice to withdraw from School due to inability to meetup with the required CGPA.
I decided to secretly job hunt, for a part-time job or a job that will grant me leverage to combine academics without losses.
When I went on most interviews, I suggested that my pay could be slashed in order for the management not to be cheated either, but it seemed everything was to no avail.
Most organizations, organized practical interviews for me, which I was informed that I performed so well and was the kind of person they actually need in their establishment but they will deny me the job because I am a student in Higher Institution as they fear, I might not be able to combine.
Back to where I was currently working, I pleaded with the management to employ an assistant for me and slash my pay into two, I did not want to quit my job because I had not gotten an alternative job yet, and as a young woman I have needs, I also need to eat food to survive.
The management of where I worked refused my offer and asked me to resign and go face my studies and I am like where do this people think I get money from?
I think the need to make a decision had arrived and I think this need came to stay. To me, it felt like being between the devil and the deep blue sea.
This has been bothering me for a long time, being that I am a sponsor to myself, and there seems to be no free things out there, funny enough, a price is being paid for virtually everything.
The thought of sacrificing one master for the other came up, I had to either sacrifice my job or I sacrifice my academics; both masters are profitable, but one had to go under the flame of sacrifice...🤦
This is a true story of what I am currently going through