Thank you for your thoughts! Luckly I have a few close friends with whom I can talk to and seeing my therapist also helps a lot.My physical health is on point but I have a really hard time managing negative emotions and I feel overwhelmed sometimes to the point that I'm unable to do anything. I have trouble accepting some things and although everybody keeps telling me that I should accept the things that happened to me I find it easier said than done. This weekend I've spend a good amount of time outdoors and it worked great. I feel my mood has improved a little but I still have a long way to go.
Breathing exercises help me alot also especially at night.
Will have a look at the book you recommended, it sounds interesting.
Thanks again for your thoughts and advices!