I don't know if gender has anything to do with it, or the way that the boys are educated but we are thought not to express our feelings,

Thankfully this is changing in many parts. that being said it is actually both conditioning is a big part but also hormones. Tans men that start taking testosterone often report a dramatic shift in their emotional landscape it is quite interesting.

EVERY TIME TWO PEOPLE ARE INVOLVED AND THAT RELATIONSHIP ENDS, THEY SHARE THE BLAME.

In most normal relationships agreed but in some like with my ex who tried to kill me leaving was survival and i refute any blame on the thing failing; there was nothing i could do to stop him from physically assaulting me the blame is on him.

On the other hand, you can't really blame them either. They were raised in a certain way, lived in a certain time and so on.

Again not always the case my Mother was malignant narcissistic sociopath who chose to abuse me both mentally and physically here twin sister (fraternal not identical ) was a fun loving person who was a great mom who raised me for a short period . While some of the issues both had came from their upbringing my mother chose to ruin people’s lies and do horrible things to people just because. Damage can cause some things but in the end what ever you do is a choice, in some cases a choice fuelled by a distortion of emotion and self but you still make the decision. So yeah I blame her but i am also over it but it took me decades to get there

As for love

One often tends to date partners that recreate ones childhood experience. Literally every man or woman I was in a relationship with ended up being my mother all over again in some aspects. At some point i decided to just cut the whole thing out of my life and it has worked well for me , but then I have lived most of my life on the outside of everything. I get lonely from time to time but truthfully it is rare, then i remind myself of the many benefits being single has and I am ok again . Not everyone is like me however some suffer greatly without a partner .

I hope things get better for you and you can balance things out , i have bi-polar disorder and depression is no joke it can zap the life out of everything . what i have noticed with mine outside of all the psychology is that eating regularly is important, if i for get to eat it screws with my dopamine levels . The same with sleep deprivation.