No se cuando ni como comenzó pero se que vive conmigo desde hace mucho tiempo, no se por que, tampoco se para que y mucho menos se como podía tratarlo, a veces este compañero duele muchisimo otras veces este compañero me hace llorar, me hace dudar de mi, me hace sentir incapaz, me hace sentir alguien muy pequeñito, este pasajero que va conmigo a veces hace que se me dificulte pararme de la cama y tener un buen dia o un dia lleno de propositos que quiero cumplir. Sin duda no es un pasajero agradable, no es una compañía grata ni deseada, solo llego, se instalo y aun sigue conmigo pero poco a poco se que se va a ir porque yo me voy a encargar de que asi sea.
Hello friends of Hive, I am writing this as a way of venting and a bit of therapy. I don't know when or how it started but I know that it has been with me for a long time, I don't know why, I don't know what for and much less how I could treat it, sometimes this companion hurts a lot, other times this companion makes me cry, makes me doubt myself, makes me feel incapable, makes me feel like someone very small, this passenger that goes with me sometimes makes it difficult for me to get out of bed and have a good day or a day full of purposes that I want to accomplish. Without a doubt he is not a pleasant passenger, he is not a pleasant or desired company, he just arrived, settled in and is still with me but little by little I know that he will leave because I am going to make sure that he does.
Foto de mi galeria personal / Photo of my personal gallery
Tu dueles y dueles mucho, dañas mucho, dejas marcas dificiles de sanar, dejas cicatrices dificiles de curar, de tapar, me haz hecho alejarme de tanta gente algunas veces te lo agradeci pero otras te lo reclame tu solo hiciste de la vista gorda y no hubo una explicacion razonable, solo un sentimiento miserable, siempre pense que todo era mi culpa, siempre me hiciste pensar que yo era quien estaba mal y por ende todo estaba mal, todo lo que me rodeaba estaba mal, me haz hecho llorar todos y cada uno de los dias, haces que mi vida a veces sea un completo desastre, haces que sea dificil hasta las tareas mas sencillas del dia a dia, haces que hasta lavarme el cabello sea una tarea tan dificil de hacer y te odio tanto por eso y todo lo que causaste y sigues ocacionando en mi vida.
Let's call this temporary passenger or companion depression!
You hurt and you hurt a lot, you hurt a lot, you leave marks that are difficult to heal, you leave scars that are difficult to heal, to cover up, you have made me move away from so many people, sometimes I thanked you but other times I complained, you just turned a blind eye and there was no reasonable explanation, just a miserable feeling, I always thought that everything was my fault, you always made me think that I was the one who was wrong and therefore everything was wrong, everything around me was wrong, you made me cry each and every day, you make my life a complete mess sometimes, you make even the simplest daily tasks difficult, you make even washing my hair such a hard task to do and I hate you so much for that and everything you caused and continue to cause in my life.
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I don't know what was your trigger, but I think I have a suspicion, you made me move away from those who were my friends for so many years at first I hated myself for that but none of them wanted to stay in my life despite the difficult moment, none of them looked for me or even when I managed to talk a little of what I was feeling each one was in something different and there was no time for me, there was no time for my feeling, for my ''problem'' so I don't know if that was something good or something bad, what I do know is that until today I miss them a lot, I miss having them in my life, I miss talking to them, I miss everything and here I want to say how happy and proud I feel for the achievements they have all had, for each one of their victories because I feel them as mine, I am happy for them and I will always wish them the best.
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Every day I try to stay calm and positive, always thinking that I will make it through and I will be ok, thanks for reading my post I hope it can be of help to someone, we all go through difficult and dark moments and as a phrase from one of my favorite books says "We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are." - Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.
Traductor DeepL / Translator DeepL
