It’s normal for people to disappoint you in life, and that’s the more reason why I always stick to keeping my circle really small to avoid any sort of drama or bad energy. Just be prepared for it always. Because what makes it more hurtful is how it always comes from the people you love most.
I’m a kind of person who doesn’t joke with his circle at all. I can literally go out of my way to see you smile as a person I like so much. Be it my family, loved ones, or friends. I don’t joke with my circle at all. And if you ask me as an human being, I also except you to do the same for people that go out of their way for you.
It hurts more when you give your all into a relationship. be it friendship or relationship; any sort of ship involved at all. and then at the end of the day, you really do not get reciprocation in return. It’s something that really hurts me personally, and it is something I try my possible best to address or let go if necessary for peace to reign.
Before I get angry or disappointed in a person, I try to give the person, if he or she is pretty much close to me, the benefit of the doubt before taking actions. I give you time to amend your wrongs, and if I eventually see that you're really not ready to amend your wrong deeds, I'd rather just walk out of your life for the sake of my sanity. I'm the kind of person that respects people's boundaries and tries as much as possible never to step on people's toes for no reason.
HOW IT ALL STARTED AND ENDED.
There was this time I purchased a pretty expensive gadget for myself, and I really did not want anyone at home to know I purchased it that year. Not because I got it in an illegal way, no!! But because I know I can be quarreled with for getting it with so much money.
So for this seek, I decided to purchase it with the name of my best friend, who turns out to be a person I trusted so much, and we've been friends since childhood. I told him the reason why I never wanted to get the gadget in my name, and he empathized with me and agreed to let me purchase it in his name.
Afterwards, when it arrived, I started making use of it several times, and at some points, my folks started asking where I got it from and how. Then I explained to them right in front of him that it wasn't mine and that it belonged to my best friend, who was standing right in front of us.
And then, they all believed and let go of my neck. I was happily using it afterwards, but was still shuffling it with my friend. Not until a very day when my friend came to my house when I was not around to report me to my folks that I should be warned not to take his things anyhow.
He said a lot of things and even went as far as telling my parents to teach me to be contented with whatever I have and that I should not always go around lending people's things. It got to my parents so bad that day. I was punished so much that I nearly cursed him for that in so much pain. My parents then asked me not to go close to him.
Me knowing deep down in me that I owned this thing and I was being lied upon had a way of leaving me in so much pain on its own. At some point, it wasn't even about the punishment anymore; it was about the fact that I was being lied on, which I hate so much and detest with all my heart.
I was really just so calm and never said anything more, because the moment I decide to take action is a day that I really do not know what might happen next. Because I might end up doing something I might regret afterwards and might never be able to fix or recover from all my life. So for my own sanity, I eventually had to cut him off.
He eventually came back begging me in private after doing everything he had in mind and even went to the length of selling something I worked so hard to purchase at a very useless price and lavished the money all. It just had a way of hurting me so bad, because I'm human.
But I eventually just had to let go at the end of the day and move on. Did I forgive him? Yes, of course I did! God also forgives our sins, so why not? But did I create a big boundary between us for my sanity? Yes, I did. And that's because a snitch like that will always be a snitch.
Thank you for taking the time to go through my post. This post is in response to the #JanuaryInLeoprompt, Day 18, and I hope you were able to learn so much from this prompt and also, being able to know the key point. People will always be there humanly self. You can't change that!