Greetings everyone!
There are some common things I have never allowed to cross my mind—one of those things is depression to the point of committing suicide. No, no, I have never thought of doing that, no matter how tough or critical the situation I may find myself in is.
Whenever I hear that people gave up on life and committed suicide, it surprises me a lot because, come on, life has two sides—it goes bad and then turns good. It can't be completely bad, no matter the situation. Aside from this, there are people who are looking up to us or around us who love us, and when we commit that terrible act of suicide, it causes them deep pain.
What are the things that keep me going whenever I want to give up?
- What if I'm about to hit it?
There's a popular saying that illustrates the fact that the moment you think of giving up, you're already at the verge of coming out of the problem or hitting the honey pot. That is to say, the point where the temptation or the issue becomes so tense is actually the last battle, and it's just waiting for you to choose between giving up or pushing a little bit further.
This is actually true because I have been in such a situation before. I wrote the SSCE exam four times and kept failing English and Maths. I thought of giving up and going into apprenticeship, but advice came, and I decided to give it one last shot—a fifth time—and that's when I passed all without stress.
That was such a big temptation because I wasn't so dull academically; life just decided to toy with me, but I won at last.
This mindset gives me so much confidence to push further again, never allowing the temptations of life to win.
Although I haven't been in such a bad situation where it seems like the world is against me, if that happens—which I'm not praying for—I still wouldn’t give up. I would scale through, and I know I will come out victorious no matter the shame I may pass through.
- I have people looking up to me:
I come from a decent family, and my upbringing is such that if I go astray, my story will sell and spread everywhere. As much as we are encouraged not to live by what people say about us, I live with that in my operations. Whenever temptation comes, I fight it through, never to give up because I have a lot of people who have my name in their hearts, and any wrong act of mine would shatter their thoughts and make them feel disappointed.
This is why I can't think of committing suicide, no matter what, because I'm so dear to a lot of people, and I know most of them would not be able to hold themselves if they heard such bad news.
Also, I just need to make it in life because I have a lot of people looking up to me. You know, coming from a churchy background where people just believe that things must work for you because of how committed you are in church, one must just keep pushing to have things work out.
Thanks for reading.
This is my entry Aprilinleo prompt, Day 27.