Sometimes, when i look at how everyone aroun dme have moved faster than me and how good they are doing with their life, i feel like i am not doing enough to myself, this is on eof the reason why i make sure to engage myself to learning new skills in other to improve myself so i dont get left behind.
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If i seat down to think about everything around me, i feel like i have so many potentials to be doing more than enough for myself but i am limited to so many opportunities around me, and people that tend to give me directions are family and uncles that follow direct Of 10-20 years ago and they expect me to apply this type of direction in the present day’s position not knowing it will affect my future, this is one of the major reason i run under Tech, not that i was motivated to do so, nobody adviced me to learn cybersecurity and Ai defense, but i took it seriously that anyone could think about it and made sure i am doing this to improve my skills.
One of the Major reason why i feel like i am not doing enough is that, i tend to listen to friends advice not knowing some of then lie to coverup their foolishness, some lie they are doinh fine just to feel among and lie about their jobs earning and salary, and when i look at this things i begin to wonder if i am doing enough or not. I am pay attention to words and advice from people that doesn’t understand what i really want and are not too rich, and listening to their advice and their own experiences really causes depression to me, it took me time to understand that my self worth was based on my Desire and determination, not just by words and that it was bad to feel less of one’self
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Another reason was when i had a quarrel with a friend and he said all bad about me, it is true when they say anger brings out the inner mind of a person. I heard so many words that i didn’t even expect from a friend and it really Hurt me, real bad, i felt it deep inside me, words he said really got to me. Negative words and language are my weakness i kind of swicth off immediately when i heard negative words.
Presently, When i experience anything that may make me feel like i am not doing enough, i tend to distract my attention away from it and focus on another thing so I don’t feel bad about it, because this like is full of ups and down, there are people bigger than us same with people smaller than us also, but we just have to put in our best effort to make sure all is going well and smooth, it is not any easy task but perhaps the feeling or thing we can do to ourself.
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