I understand where you're coming from my dear... Most times I can be like this... Sometimes having to deal with stuffs on your own helps and makes one learn to be independent but one thing I need you to understand is that you can't keep shutting people out when going through phases like this.. there are times where by one needs his/her loved ones around to help them go through whatever they are dealing with.. we all need someone at one point or the other to heal... Sending love and light.. I hope you get to feel better..