Woke up in a good mood and thought I would share a few things about myself. I am a recovering drug addict that has basically completely isolated myself throughout the years. I am 33 now married with 3 kids. Life is getting better for myself now. I basically live for my kids to see a smile on their faces and give them everything they want and need. I don’t have many friends left as most of my old friends are still in the life that I managed to escape. I wish them the best but I can not socialize with them anymore because I don’t want to get pulled back into that life. I have a family now and huge responsibilities that come with it.
It has been a tuff journey for me as I got into my previous life style at a pretty young age. I hung around the older crowd when I was young, most of my friends are about at least 6 years older than myself. I saw the stuff they were doing and being a young kid it looked fun until you get stuck in it, then the fun stops. I think back and think maybe if I had better role models I might of been a lawyer or something by now. Im not a dumb person, school was always easy for me and if I had actually tried I would of easily been able to go to college and what not. I don’t linger on those thoughts anymore and just try to make my future better for myself and my family. You can’t get lost time back you just got to make the best of what you have left.
Being a recovering drug addict you have your good and your bad days just like everyone else but when you have a bad day you get those thoughts again. It gets easier as time passes by. But we humans are social beings and as I have cut myself off from most of my old friends that are not on the route I am on now. I don’t have to many people to really socialize with. People that haven’t gone through what you have don’t really understand your struggle and are usually judgmental. So I usually don’t talk about this stuff with anyone.
I never really shared any of this stuff here on the platform as I thought I would be judged. If you been following the news in the past years you know there was a opiate epidemic in the US and my city was hit pretty hard by it. Kids taking pills not realizing what they are doing to themselves.
I don’t know why I am sharing this with you all today and feel like deleting everything I wrote but oh well.
I am not looking for any pity from anyone I am a grown man that made my choices in life and lived with the consequences and was able to get myself right. I have been 6 years clean now. I just have a drink here and there occasionally and being from California I burn some trees here and there. Cannabis and CBD actually helped me out a lot. Some in the recovery world don’t count that as being clean which is why I never really participated in any 12 step programs. But as long as it is not harmful to myself or my family I am ok with it.
Just remember whatever anyone here is going through it will pass and that you will be alright. If you put your mind on something and put in the work there is nothing you can not accomplish.